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I go through my days thinking about things I might write, about subjects that could morph themselves into posts. I file them away in my head, save them for now, but when I sit down at my desk there's a complete blank space where there should be substance. I'm afraid of life - have been since August - and I think this is because I've spent the majority of my time shut up in the library, out of touch with just about everything.
Maybe, like Fellini, I'll make something out of this - write about the complete absence of inspiration - but it probably won't be as well crafted or beautiful.
So I'll start with a framework instead. There's been a random "25 questions" meme slinking, herpes-like, through the internet - now I'll bite.
1. I've never broken a bone though I've had my upper lip split, ear cartilage torn, teeth knocked out and been in multiple concussions. I'm thankful for this.
2. I'm the stingiest person I know - and my family will constantly call me out on it. It has its perks - I'm able to save almost more money than anyone else I know (I saved >40% of my pre-tax income last year) - but sometimes I think I should spend more and enjoy life.
3. I'm constantly hungry or eating. Think of Brad Pitt's character in Ocean's Eleven. I'm eating as I write this meme.
4. I have a love/hate relationship (can't think of any less-cliche-ey way to state this) with my height. I can barely reach the cookie jar.
6. #4 makes clothes shopping a chore; consequently when I find something that fits (e.g. a sweater) I'll buy three of them in varying colors. My wardrobe is a bit laughable - I own multiple copies of the same piece, like someone went a little CNTRL-C, CNTRL-Z crazy in my closet.
7. I don't think guns should be legal but (hypocritically) enjoy going to the shooting range.
8. I'm also the biggest (non-famous) hypocrite I know - and working out what I believe in and how I want to be seen by others is a constant concern.
9. Endurance sports are my thing; I've always wanted to do a biathlon but can't ski worth beans.
10. I really, really like to cook. There's an unbaked loaf of dough sitting in my fridge right now. It seems relatively simple - follow directions and have patience, and yummy things will result. Unfortunately this is not always the case...
11. I have nearly set the same apartmet on fire twice on two different occasions.
12. I've never had a one night stand.
13. I like to go through museums and art galleries very slowly. I have spent entire days at museums only to go back the next day because I only got through half of it. Strangely enough I can't remember a lot of the art I see, but if you show me a picture and I've seen it my memory will kick in and I can tell you where I saw it.
14. I've got a ridiculous memory for names, faces and clothing. People are sometimes amazed (I enjoy this).
15. I enjoy "making stuff" - whether by sewing machine, C++/Python or machine shop tools. If I had a chance to go through life again I'd be an engineer for this reason, but I feel my path will definitely revolve around creation.
16. I couldn't think of living by myself (i.e. without a roommate) because I enjoy being around people - but now that I have my own place I'd rather live by myself.
17. My junior year of college, my roommate (who is built like a Spanish Bull) put me on a bodybuilder's diet. I took vitamin supplements, glutamine, drank protein shakes every day and went to the gym five days a week for three months. The result? I gained five pounds and was still skinnier than a willow switch.
18. I get angsty when I can't exercise.
19. I want to become a physician because it will let me practice my trade anywhere in the world as long as I can communicate. The travel opportunities are nearly endless. Whatever you've heard about "altruism" or "healing the sick" is only partially true. I hear that the money's not bad, also.
20. I play my father's records (think The Doobie Brothers, Squarepusher, James Taylor, Abraxas etc.) more than he does - it's one of the first things I do whenever I visit my parents.
21. I like to throw dinner parties (in my parents house) and cook for others - I don't like to dine alone - someday when I have my own place I want to make this a weekly occurrence. Wishful thinking.
22. Children are fun and inquisitive when they're young but quickly become devils on two legs. As long as they're not mine, I'm okay with them.
23. I will usually bend over backwards to give other people the "benefit of the doubt", but if I mean to hurt you then I've probably done it on purpose.
24. I have a horrid habit of talking too much, inflating my own ego and trying to dominate almost every conversation I find myself in.
25. Humor, for me, is a huge shielf. Being the funny guy in the room stops me from having to think about serious conversation.
That was a lot.
Maybe, like Fellini, I'll make something out of this - write about the complete absence of inspiration - but it probably won't be as well crafted or beautiful.
So I'll start with a framework instead. There's been a random "25 questions" meme slinking, herpes-like, through the internet - now I'll bite.
1. I've never broken a bone though I've had my upper lip split, ear cartilage torn, teeth knocked out and been in multiple concussions. I'm thankful for this.
2. I'm the stingiest person I know - and my family will constantly call me out on it. It has its perks - I'm able to save almost more money than anyone else I know (I saved >40% of my pre-tax income last year) - but sometimes I think I should spend more and enjoy life.
3. I'm constantly hungry or eating. Think of Brad Pitt's character in Ocean's Eleven. I'm eating as I write this meme.
4. I have a love/hate relationship (can't think of any less-cliche-ey way to state this) with my height. I can barely reach the cookie jar.
6. #4 makes clothes shopping a chore; consequently when I find something that fits (e.g. a sweater) I'll buy three of them in varying colors. My wardrobe is a bit laughable - I own multiple copies of the same piece, like someone went a little CNTRL-C, CNTRL-Z crazy in my closet.
7. I don't think guns should be legal but (hypocritically) enjoy going to the shooting range.
8. I'm also the biggest (non-famous) hypocrite I know - and working out what I believe in and how I want to be seen by others is a constant concern.
9. Endurance sports are my thing; I've always wanted to do a biathlon but can't ski worth beans.
10. I really, really like to cook. There's an unbaked loaf of dough sitting in my fridge right now. It seems relatively simple - follow directions and have patience, and yummy things will result. Unfortunately this is not always the case...
11. I have nearly set the same apartmet on fire twice on two different occasions.
12. I've never had a one night stand.
13. I like to go through museums and art galleries very slowly. I have spent entire days at museums only to go back the next day because I only got through half of it. Strangely enough I can't remember a lot of the art I see, but if you show me a picture and I've seen it my memory will kick in and I can tell you where I saw it.
14. I've got a ridiculous memory for names, faces and clothing. People are sometimes amazed (I enjoy this).
15. I enjoy "making stuff" - whether by sewing machine, C++/Python or machine shop tools. If I had a chance to go through life again I'd be an engineer for this reason, but I feel my path will definitely revolve around creation.
16. I couldn't think of living by myself (i.e. without a roommate) because I enjoy being around people - but now that I have my own place I'd rather live by myself.
17. My junior year of college, my roommate (who is built like a Spanish Bull) put me on a bodybuilder's diet. I took vitamin supplements, glutamine, drank protein shakes every day and went to the gym five days a week for three months. The result? I gained five pounds and was still skinnier than a willow switch.
18. I get angsty when I can't exercise.
19. I want to become a physician because it will let me practice my trade anywhere in the world as long as I can communicate. The travel opportunities are nearly endless. Whatever you've heard about "altruism" or "healing the sick" is only partially true. I hear that the money's not bad, also.
20. I play my father's records (think The Doobie Brothers, Squarepusher, James Taylor, Abraxas etc.) more than he does - it's one of the first things I do whenever I visit my parents.
21. I like to throw dinner parties (in my parents house) and cook for others - I don't like to dine alone - someday when I have my own place I want to make this a weekly occurrence. Wishful thinking.
22. Children are fun and inquisitive when they're young but quickly become devils on two legs. As long as they're not mine, I'm okay with them.
23. I will usually bend over backwards to give other people the "benefit of the doubt", but if I mean to hurt you then I've probably done it on purpose.
24. I have a horrid habit of talking too much, inflating my own ego and trying to dominate almost every conversation I find myself in.
25. Humor, for me, is a huge shielf. Being the funny guy in the room stops me from having to think about serious conversation.
That was a lot.