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So I went to see the house last night. The girl living there who would be my roommate and land lord was quite nice, but the other tenant who was not there at the time had a or a couple cats. I'm sure I saw more than one, but the girl said "she has a cat.". I'm not sure whether or not I'm allergic to cats yet, and I don't want to find out when I'm stuck on a lease. The house, definitely the room I'd be in, was quite small, too. I think Osborne spoiled me. It was rather big. I so miss living there.
The girl goes to Springs church, which is a really big church in the city that I often find myself wanting to go to because I could probably easily find friends there. So... for the most part I'm saying no to the place...but there's a big tug in the heart to say yes. Happiness certainly does not come from being lonely. the only reason I'd say yes to the place, is to make friends with them and possibly find friends through them. The way I am, I feel I just can't do it without living with someone. I hate acquaintances. They're so mocking.
Anyway....so I guess the hunt continues. I'm having doubts about it anyway... how am I going to go to school and pay for a place to rent? It sounds impossible. But how do I go to school and live here? That also sounds impossible. Why is everything such a struggle when I know it doesn't have to be? Sigh.
I go in in about half an hour to go on a tour of the school. ...My mom wants to come. It's nice to feel independent. I'll never get anywhere in life.
I should eat before I go, cause I love looking like a fatty.
The girl goes to Springs church, which is a really big church in the city that I often find myself wanting to go to because I could probably easily find friends there. So... for the most part I'm saying no to the place...but there's a big tug in the heart to say yes. Happiness certainly does not come from being lonely. the only reason I'd say yes to the place, is to make friends with them and possibly find friends through them. The way I am, I feel I just can't do it without living with someone. I hate acquaintances. They're so mocking.
Anyway....so I guess the hunt continues. I'm having doubts about it anyway... how am I going to go to school and pay for a place to rent? It sounds impossible. But how do I go to school and live here? That also sounds impossible. Why is everything such a struggle when I know it doesn't have to be? Sigh.
I go in in about half an hour to go on a tour of the school. ...My mom wants to come. It's nice to feel independent. I'll never get anywhere in life.
I should eat before I go, cause I love looking like a fatty.