Tash's Shindig
I definitely had an amazing time. I'm glad things went down how it did.
I saw Mike for the first time in a year. I haven't seen him since the last time he freaked out over Brian and then proceeded to put bruises on me because he was grabbing me so hard. THEN he tried to come home with me to "talk". Extremely intense, very upsetting situation. Any ways, since then I've made it clear that I'd rather just not have that in my life.
Any ways, it was unplanned but I'm glad it went down like it did. I still have no interest in having that kind of person in my life but I didn't know what to expect and it went down well. I knew on my part, it'd be fine...just because I know myself. And I'm over it. It was never about that fact that I couldn't be in the same room with him, I'd just prefer NOT to be. I STILL prefer it that way, even though things went fine. I definitely wouldn't create drama for Tash when it was unneeded but there is always the unexpected to consider. But thankfully that never happened. It was never about that fact that I couldn't be in the same room with him, I'd just prefer NOT to be. I STILL prefer it that way, even though things went fine.
Its funny, cuz I didn't really know how I would feel. If I would be disgusted, angry, amused or what. But the funny thing is, I felt LITERALLY nothing. I didn't even care if he was there. Because I've entertained0 thoughts before like, "I bet he misses our friendship" because I WAS a pretty good friend to him and put up with a LOT of his bullshit. And we use to have a lot of fun together when there wasn't any drama... and I use to think "He SHOULD!" I thought I would care if he was sorry or not, or be angry if he wasn't...or hope that he was miserable...but in all actuality, I don't care at all. In fact, I don't wish any thing bad towards him. I doubt he'll ever be sorry or sorry enough for one thing. But even if he is...I don't care. I don't need him to miss my friendship or be sad about the way he treated me because none of that really matters. I love knowing that. And I'M not sorry about one thing. I'm glad my life has turned out the way it did, because I'm 100% sure about knowing that I got the best deal in the end. And that's the best closure any one could ask for.
Love You Brian!!!! :)
I saw Mike for the first time in a year. I haven't seen him since the last time he freaked out over Brian and then proceeded to put bruises on me because he was grabbing me so hard. THEN he tried to come home with me to "talk". Extremely intense, very upsetting situation. Any ways, since then I've made it clear that I'd rather just not have that in my life.
Any ways, it was unplanned but I'm glad it went down like it did. I still have no interest in having that kind of person in my life but I didn't know what to expect and it went down well. I knew on my part, it'd be fine...just because I know myself. And I'm over it. It was never about that fact that I couldn't be in the same room with him, I'd just prefer NOT to be. I STILL prefer it that way, even though things went fine. I definitely wouldn't create drama for Tash when it was unneeded but there is always the unexpected to consider. But thankfully that never happened. It was never about that fact that I couldn't be in the same room with him, I'd just prefer NOT to be. I STILL prefer it that way, even though things went fine.
Its funny, cuz I didn't really know how I would feel. If I would be disgusted, angry, amused or what. But the funny thing is, I felt LITERALLY nothing. I didn't even care if he was there. Because I've entertained0 thoughts before like, "I bet he misses our friendship" because I WAS a pretty good friend to him and put up with a LOT of his bullshit. And we use to have a lot of fun together when there wasn't any drama... and I use to think "He SHOULD!" I thought I would care if he was sorry or not, or be angry if he wasn't...or hope that he was miserable...but in all actuality, I don't care at all. In fact, I don't wish any thing bad towards him. I doubt he'll ever be sorry or sorry enough for one thing. But even if he is...I don't care. I don't need him to miss my friendship or be sad about the way he treated me because none of that really matters. I love knowing that. And I'M not sorry about one thing. I'm glad my life has turned out the way it did, because I'm 100% sure about knowing that I got the best deal in the end. And that's the best closure any one could ask for.
Love You Brian!!!! :)