[ seventh sky ] ; text
[ Tsuna was. Well, he was having issues. Mostly with himself. And Mukuro hadn't come back last night- which Tsuna was okay with. He didn't want to talk to the Mist user right now. He really didn't even want to see him right now. ]
[ This, however, was making him have even more issues. He should be more worried. But he was just glad of the distance. He needed some time. ]
[ The boy was disgusted with himself. On several levels. ]
[ Selfish. Unfair. Cruel. ]
[ He just didn't want to be a mafia boss. Was that really so terrible of him? Did it really make him all of those things? If so... that- it just wasn't fair. It just wasn't fair. He just wanted to be normal. That was all. And everyone was treating him like a terrible person for it. ]
[ Enma would get it. Reborn might kick him- but he'd have something meaningful to say about it, something that might help Tsuna understand better. He missed home. He missed it like crazy. He'd been missing home more every day- he was just good at hiding that kind of thing. Because really. It's not like any of his friends were here. Everyone was a stranger. And then the one person here who could say they actually knew him- well, he'd just... ]
[ Tsuna frowned at the device in his hands. Before making the post he'd been contemplating for the last hour. ]
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say you were told you were supposed to be the boss of something. something bad. and big. it hurts people. its done horrible things in the past. its past and its sins are bloody. bloody and scary. and being the boss puts you and the people you care about in danger. all the time. everywhere you turn someone else seems to be trying to attack you.
you have to fight again and again and again. and youre just a kid. you never wanted to be that person. the person who could kill someone in battle and walk away from it and be okay with it.
you resist becoming boss of that because youre scared. that world is too big for you. you feel like youre drowning all the time. youre scared that one day youll turn around and one of your friends wont be there anymore because you werent strong enough to protect them all. you couldnt be everywhere at once. you couldnt protect everyone. so you lost someone.
the organization is big and scary. the world it belongs to is dark and bloody and corrupt. and youre told youre the only one who can change this. who can make it better. who can make it stop. youre just a kid but you have to carry the weight of all the sins of that organization and the responsibility of making it right again.
would you think someone selfish if they wanted to run away from that?
[ This, however, was making him have even more issues. He should be more worried. But he was just glad of the distance. He needed some time. ]
[ The boy was disgusted with himself. On several levels. ]
[ Selfish. Unfair. Cruel. ]
[ He just didn't want to be a mafia boss. Was that really so terrible of him? Did it really make him all of those things? If so... that- it just wasn't fair. It just wasn't fair. He just wanted to be normal. That was all. And everyone was treating him like a terrible person for it. ]
[ Enma would get it. Reborn might kick him- but he'd have something meaningful to say about it, something that might help Tsuna understand better. He missed home. He missed it like crazy. He'd been missing home more every day- he was just good at hiding that kind of thing. Because really. It's not like any of his friends were here. Everyone was a stranger. And then the one person here who could say they actually knew him- well, he'd just... ]
[ Tsuna frowned at the device in his hands. Before making the post he'd been contemplating for the last hour. ]
Text | Filtered away from Mukuro, Fran, and Mammon |
say you were told you were supposed to be the boss of something. something bad. and big. it hurts people. its done horrible things in the past. its past and its sins are bloody. bloody and scary. and being the boss puts you and the people you care about in danger. all the time. everywhere you turn someone else seems to be trying to attack you.
you have to fight again and again and again. and youre just a kid. you never wanted to be that person. the person who could kill someone in battle and walk away from it and be okay with it.
you resist becoming boss of that because youre scared. that world is too big for you. you feel like youre drowning all the time. youre scared that one day youll turn around and one of your friends wont be there anymore because you werent strong enough to protect them all. you couldnt be everywhere at once. you couldnt protect everyone. so you lost someone.
the organization is big and scary. the world it belongs to is dark and bloody and corrupt. and youre told youre the only one who can change this. who can make it better. who can make it stop. youre just a kid but you have to carry the weight of all the sins of that organization and the responsibility of making it right again.
would you think someone selfish if they wanted to run away from that?