Things to ponder.~ A new year.
So my last post was only the very tip of everything that is changing. I have been so busy and scatterbrained, I haven't even bothered to post much lately, so y'all have missed out on a lot.
I am growing up. I am becoming an adult. And I am happy.
I'm currently working not one steady job, but -two- steady part-time jobs. Candy store/Newsstand and I'm now working at the World Wrapps fast-food restaurant in the ferry terminal as well, on the weekends. I really like the management, and the laid-back atmosphere of both jobs. I actually enjoy my work, as opposed to simply going there for the coworkers and the money like I did at Best Buy.
I am interested (still!) in taking dance lessons sometime this year, but that's only a vague notion at this point, considering the two jobs and all. I also would like to take piano lessons, but the only person I would have the patience to learn from is back in Colorado, and not likely to come out here, even for me. xD ♥ pirate_fae!
Schooling is put off indefinitely, until I have money/time/motivation. I'm really waiting for that motivation, and working towards getting myself organized and such so that I stop feeling like such a slacker. I've gotten a little bit of work done on my room, I should really consider cranking the music and doing more today.
I'm, for those of you who may not know, dating someone new. Online. >.>; He lives in Tennessee. I think.. This relationship has really been the starting point of a lot of the changes I've been making lately. I am by no means changing -for- him, but I have started to be able to see the world from a point of view different from how I was raised. All of my interactions of late have been more like that, much more truly open-minded than before. I guess seeing someone who is so different from me (and he is, at least in some respects) who still cares for me despite the differences between us, and who I care for despite them as well... It changes a person.
I am finally discovering true compromise. Up until now, I have been a selfish child when it comes to relationships. Everything is about me. Slowly I'm learning that that can't be the case. The first, the major compromise that I have been willing to make... Is to be monogamous. He is very solid in his decision that polyamory is not for him, and I am entirely willing to acknowledge his dislike for it, and acquiesce to his wishes regarding not being in an open relationship.
That had a lot of big words in it.
I'm also resolved to try new things. I'm discovering that I do, after all, like some types of fish. Salmon, in particular. Yummm. Not just the sweet bourbon salmon that Mom makes, but salmon in general. And I already knew I liked crab. Pain in the butt to eat it, though. =/
Not just food, either. As most of you saw in my last post, I am also trying new religions.
I am seeking my path in life, and finally stepping outside of the space I am comfortable in, to seek out other walks of life in hopes of enlightenment.
I'm very proud of myself. This, this is what I will remember when I remember the age I always wanted to be. From a very young age, everything was all about "when I'm nineteen..." and now I finally am. I'm an adult, I've been a legal adult for a year and I'm turning into an adult in so many other ways. I am... incredibly happy, to be making these changes. To find out who I am, and push myself to be better and stronger and always, always keep moving forward.
Sometimes I have to stop and look back, and marvel at all the things that have happened, all the things that have changed, and all the things that have changed -me-. The memories are not always pleasant. Some are painful reminders of my past, and some would be happy if the recollection of better days gone by didn't make me so sad for their disappearance.
There is nothing I can do to change that, so I should quit dwelling on the memories and allowing them to make me sad.
I do believe I've gone on enough for one post today. Time for me to turn my heater up a little, turn the music up, and get some cleaning and organizing done around here.
To all a good new year, and may you all prosper.
I am growing up. I am becoming an adult. And I am happy.
I'm currently working not one steady job, but -two- steady part-time jobs. Candy store/Newsstand and I'm now working at the World Wrapps fast-food restaurant in the ferry terminal as well, on the weekends. I really like the management, and the laid-back atmosphere of both jobs. I actually enjoy my work, as opposed to simply going there for the coworkers and the money like I did at Best Buy.
I am interested (still!) in taking dance lessons sometime this year, but that's only a vague notion at this point, considering the two jobs and all. I also would like to take piano lessons, but the only person I would have the patience to learn from is back in Colorado, and not likely to come out here, even for me. xD ♥ pirate_fae!
Schooling is put off indefinitely, until I have money/time/motivation. I'm really waiting for that motivation, and working towards getting myself organized and such so that I stop feeling like such a slacker. I've gotten a little bit of work done on my room, I should really consider cranking the music and doing more today.
I'm, for those of you who may not know, dating someone new. Online. >.>; He lives in Tennessee. I think.. This relationship has really been the starting point of a lot of the changes I've been making lately. I am by no means changing -for- him, but I have started to be able to see the world from a point of view different from how I was raised. All of my interactions of late have been more like that, much more truly open-minded than before. I guess seeing someone who is so different from me (and he is, at least in some respects) who still cares for me despite the differences between us, and who I care for despite them as well... It changes a person.
I am finally discovering true compromise. Up until now, I have been a selfish child when it comes to relationships. Everything is about me. Slowly I'm learning that that can't be the case. The first, the major compromise that I have been willing to make... Is to be monogamous. He is very solid in his decision that polyamory is not for him, and I am entirely willing to acknowledge his dislike for it, and acquiesce to his wishes regarding not being in an open relationship.
That had a lot of big words in it.
I'm also resolved to try new things. I'm discovering that I do, after all, like some types of fish. Salmon, in particular. Yummm. Not just the sweet bourbon salmon that Mom makes, but salmon in general. And I already knew I liked crab. Pain in the butt to eat it, though. =/
Not just food, either. As most of you saw in my last post, I am also trying new religions.
I am seeking my path in life, and finally stepping outside of the space I am comfortable in, to seek out other walks of life in hopes of enlightenment.
I'm very proud of myself. This, this is what I will remember when I remember the age I always wanted to be. From a very young age, everything was all about "when I'm nineteen..." and now I finally am. I'm an adult, I've been a legal adult for a year and I'm turning into an adult in so many other ways. I am... incredibly happy, to be making these changes. To find out who I am, and push myself to be better and stronger and always, always keep moving forward.
Sometimes I have to stop and look back, and marvel at all the things that have happened, all the things that have changed, and all the things that have changed -me-. The memories are not always pleasant. Some are painful reminders of my past, and some would be happy if the recollection of better days gone by didn't make me so sad for their disappearance.
There is nothing I can do to change that, so I should quit dwelling on the memories and allowing them to make me sad.
I do believe I've gone on enough for one post today. Time for me to turn my heater up a little, turn the music up, and get some cleaning and organizing done around here.
To all a good new year, and may you all prosper.