Its been a while...
So I know sometimes I can act a little crazy. And sometimes I can act like a spoiled princess... but I can't help but wonder if its all in my head or if there REALLY is something wrong with us. Something that is so big (or small?) but will always be the one thing keeping us apart - or at each other's throats.
I mean, for instance. A simple text message. A "hi thinking of you" or "goodnight" or "home safe.. any of those would be better than not receiving one at all. Especially when it was his idea to text. Am I wrong to be upset at the fact that he doesn't even think about me before he goes to bed? Or to assume that thats the case anyways. I guess I just feel stupid b/c its not like this is the first time. I just don't understand how little things like that don't matter. I mean I could make up an excuse in that they are just "little things" and it shouldn't really matter in the grand scheme of things.. but the fact is that they matter to ME. And how many times should you have to explain how you feel before you settle with it will happen if he feels like it??
I love him. I love us when we're together. I love being able to talk to him. I love the idea of growing old together and being cute and romantic.
I also know that I love the comfort. I love the stability. I love the fact that someone will always be there.
I don't know.. am I settling??? I know you all prob think I am... Okay. Here's what I'm going to do: Make a list. Mary Beth's "Perfect Guy" list. And we'll see how many he matches up with. SO lame. I know. But I've never done it before so maybe it works??
Mary Beth's Perfect Guy:
- Funny
- Laid Back
- Generous (like volunteer and do good stuff for other people)
- Loves to travel
- Family Oriented
- Loves my family :)
- Saves responsibly (but not too responsibly)
- Spontaneous
- SMART (educated w/ street smarts)
- Humble
- Open minded and doesn't judge
- Doesn't drink too much
- Follows an "actions speak louder than words" mentality
- has his priorities straight (a.k.a. me first ;p )
- Has some sort of faith
- Can be counted on
- Trustworthy
- Hard working
... K i'm tired. I'll have to continue this list at a later date..
xoxo night all
I mean, for instance. A simple text message. A "hi thinking of you" or "goodnight" or "home safe.. any of those would be better than not receiving one at all. Especially when it was his idea to text. Am I wrong to be upset at the fact that he doesn't even think about me before he goes to bed? Or to assume that thats the case anyways. I guess I just feel stupid b/c its not like this is the first time. I just don't understand how little things like that don't matter. I mean I could make up an excuse in that they are just "little things" and it shouldn't really matter in the grand scheme of things.. but the fact is that they matter to ME. And how many times should you have to explain how you feel before you settle with it will happen if he feels like it??
I love him. I love us when we're together. I love being able to talk to him. I love the idea of growing old together and being cute and romantic.
I also know that I love the comfort. I love the stability. I love the fact that someone will always be there.
I don't know.. am I settling??? I know you all prob think I am... Okay. Here's what I'm going to do: Make a list. Mary Beth's "Perfect Guy" list. And we'll see how many he matches up with. SO lame. I know. But I've never done it before so maybe it works??
Mary Beth's Perfect Guy:
- Funny
- Laid Back
- Generous (like volunteer and do good stuff for other people)
- Loves to travel
- Family Oriented
- Loves my family :)
- Saves responsibly (but not too responsibly)
- Spontaneous
- SMART (educated w/ street smarts)
- Humble
- Open minded and doesn't judge
- Doesn't drink too much
- Follows an "actions speak louder than words" mentality
- has his priorities straight (a.k.a. me first ;p )
- Has some sort of faith
- Can be counted on
- Trustworthy
- Hard working
... K i'm tired. I'll have to continue this list at a later date..
xoxo night all