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[onmyownbleeding]

its real now.
inescapable.
what does matter mean?
obviously not enough, or as much as youd like to be.
isn't that the point?
to want to be more.
its here.
now is not the time fore these things to grow.
they will, regardless.
ive never felt more like erased penciled in plans, or neglected half dead replaced by plastic houseplants.
let it burn in until its not deniable.
until you choke down enough to know it hurts when it goes down and settles.
to be speak think breathe break leave and do.
pieces of me.
its all to real now.