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well today was interesting. woke up early, and threw up a couple times. nice thing to do when you wake up let me tell you. debated on goin to school, then my mom kindah made me. bitch i kno. whos mom makes their kid go to school when their fuckin puking? whatever. i dont even think im sick, i think i've been kindah worrying bout some things lately and juss made myself sick. i tend to do that alot.. which isn't cool at all. but school sucked. kindah had a tummy ache all day. then a head ache off n' on. after school i had a softball game away at northville. pitched, didn't do too well today. near the end i did alright i guess. but i felt like shit. and i dunno, juss one of those days. aw man i love our team soo much tho. waited for the JV boys. and then headed on the bus. talked to t cucci for a while. haha. i love that kid, and miss him tons. wow but yea. came home, and started on my homework. yea weird, but i really dont wannah re-do 9th grade again. and with the direction im goin.. that may juss happen. soo im tryin my hardest right now. soo yea. tomorrow, games cancelled and we have no practice. SCOREEE! wow, some people are truly & amazinly nice. like lauren, she's soo sweet. and i fuckin love her. she makes me feel good bout myself along with ben. thanks ben! your awesome. but yea.. things are beyond confusing right now. and im not likin it. but whatever i guess.. ill hafta get over it. i miss my best friend. i truly dont like who he is anymore. maybe it'll grow on me. but i kno you don't care. i dunno.. i miss a lot of things right now. i miss mizz. i miss the days we hung out with *the guys* all the time. i miss the guys. yea i still hang out with them. i juss dont hang out with ALL of them at the same time anymore.. bekuz they've changed, i've changed, things have changed i guess. fuck it. i shouldn't care anymore.