taste that stale air
1. My earliest memory is of reaching up to my mom at disney land. i was 2 or 3, but the next memory i have is when i was 4 and a half, breakdancing on the floor of our kitchen in lincoln park. i remember not understanding why the lights were off, it was getting dark in the late afternoon. I stopped for a second and asked my mom how old i was. she said "four and a half."
2. the pants i own are mostly old and too small because i don't know of any stores i like, to go get new pants that fit better.
3. i feel spread out, but spread thin.
4. loud noises startle me, often causing me to flinch or cringe in one way or another.
5. i think I missinterpret people. I can never tell what anyone wants from me, and so i feel like i'm letting them down. even strangers!
6. when i talk to someone i mock the way they speak, or type. i think in order to appeal to them more. as a result i can never decide how i want to type or talk when i'm not really addressing anyone in particular.
7. Right now I'm going through all of the silly little facts about me that seem appropriate for this activity, and discarding the ones that sound boring, as if this was supposed to be EXCITING WOAHHH.
8. I come up with a lot of explanations for the way i act and think, but they're probably just subconcious lies to reassure me. But if I lie subconciously to myself to make me feel better, why do i feel like crap sometimes?
9. when i think about all this stuff i get a heavy feeling in my stomach that really really really annoys me and it's taking foreverrrrrrrrrr.
10. When I was little i had too many toys.
11. LATE BLOOMERS REPRESENT.
12. i get really cranky when people say they have ocd because they fidget.
13. this one time i overslept and missed my flight. how embarassing...
14. I take nail biting breaks.
15. This is getting really hard, and my stomach is starting to really hurt. So I'm going to stop at 15.
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2. the pants i own are mostly old and too small because i don't know of any stores i like, to go get new pants that fit better.
3. i feel spread out, but spread thin.
4. loud noises startle me, often causing me to flinch or cringe in one way or another.
5. i think I missinterpret people. I can never tell what anyone wants from me, and so i feel like i'm letting them down. even strangers!
6. when i talk to someone i mock the way they speak, or type. i think in order to appeal to them more. as a result i can never decide how i want to type or talk when i'm not really addressing anyone in particular.
7. Right now I'm going through all of the silly little facts about me that seem appropriate for this activity, and discarding the ones that sound boring, as if this was supposed to be EXCITING WOAHHH.
8. I come up with a lot of explanations for the way i act and think, but they're probably just subconcious lies to reassure me. But if I lie subconciously to myself to make me feel better, why do i feel like crap sometimes?
9. when i think about all this stuff i get a heavy feeling in my stomach that really really really annoys me and it's taking foreverrrrrrrrrr.
10. When I was little i had too many toys.
11. LATE BLOOMERS REPRESENT.
12. i get really cranky when people say they have ocd because they fidget.
13. this one time i overslept and missed my flight. how embarassing...
14. I take nail biting breaks.
15. This is getting really hard, and my stomach is starting to really hurt. So I'm going to stop at 15.
checkit