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i spent the last three days taking care of my grandfather. it was humbling, and awful and it times a huge "fuck you" and power trip. i left yesterday afternoon after hospice finally got there. toyed with going back, cause i wasn't sure how my folks were going to handle it-- but, i didn't need to. he died last night at 12:30, took his last breath alone, apparently. he was probably holding out for that. there was a lot of drama. there were a lot of tears. i've prayed for his death time and time again and felt guilty and relieved and like i never wanted to see him again.

the funeral should be interesting. so much family drama with my gf's girlfriend and my mother. i will write a screenplay when its finished.