Part ii
Second and more personal thought~ i believe im not meant to run into those two men so i can remain sane and,more importantly, dignified. Even after three years i know how visceral my reaction to n would be. Id end up getting arrested for punching him or in bed with him. Or most likely, both. Maybe my beliefs and feelings will change with time. We knew this intensity and drama that i can never explain. This is why im holding out for mr. Stability! Although my mood disorder is successfully treated, drama and intensity send me from one pole to the next. But the life i choose to lead is, in many ways, dramatic and intense. And the times they are changing. i will no longer find it endearing when someone carves my name into his hand with a paperclip.