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i am in crisis mode. like, verge of tears, total nervous breakdown mode. i am not doing well at my job. its not a good fit. i'm like the william hung of inpatient ot. no amount of practice is going to help. i can't make any decisions today... its in God's hands. and i'm not overreacting about my job... it is this hard for me. its fucking killing me. i think i've gained about ten pounds in a month, my ass just received another zipcode. and oh irritable bowel is getting ready to take control of my body. this is the season of winter, of stillness. i have to just beeee with this.

i want a salt lick of valium today.