Me, Myself and I.

Jan 31, 2005 14:49

I qualified for Nationals on Friday. But last night my parents were all serious-like and said we had to 'talk.' They're worried I might be too stressed with swimming. No shit. Training twice a day and balancing school and friends is slightly more than difficult. But I'm not giving up Nationals and my shot at Canada Games just because I'm feeling pressure. To do so would be to give up, and to give up would be to fail.

We just don't want you to feel that we're pressuring you into doing something you don't want to.

So stop trying to get me to cut back on swimming. I want to swim. I don't want to ease off. That would completely fsck up everything I've worked for the past two and a half years. What was the point of training and pushing this far if I'm just going to let it all go?

Remember that we'll support you no matter what you do. We won't consider your backing off swimming as quitting or failure.

No. But I will. And right now it's completely irrelevant what you think. All that matters is what I think.

What if you don't make Canada Games? How will you feel then? Will you be able to deal with it?

Defeat when you've done all you could to prepare and gave your best effort is disappointing, but not debilitating. Guilt and the knowledge that you could have succeeded had you not given up, is.

Just don't blame us if you decide that you don't want to do this. We offered you another option.

Failure is not an option.
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