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I'm so frustrated with life!
I really don't understand what God's doing or trying to teach me other than maybe self-sufficiency. But we were made for community so I don't really see that as the reason.
I don't think a month goes by without me thinking that maybe I shouldn't have transfered schools. Things would definitely be different if I had stayed at Sam. I mean, some things would have been a lot harder (it's hard to date someone who you live so far away from!) but would they have been better over all? I mean, I love HBU and I love some of the opportunities that I'm getting here, but I can't help thinking that some of the other more intangible areas of my life would have been better had I stayed. Some of the more important areas. I don't know. Who's to say how it would have turned out? Maybe I am better off this way. But it's days like today that make me wonder what I was thinking two years ago. =(
I really don't understand what God's doing or trying to teach me other than maybe self-sufficiency. But we were made for community so I don't really see that as the reason.
I don't think a month goes by without me thinking that maybe I shouldn't have transfered schools. Things would definitely be different if I had stayed at Sam. I mean, some things would have been a lot harder (it's hard to date someone who you live so far away from!) but would they have been better over all? I mean, I love HBU and I love some of the opportunities that I'm getting here, but I can't help thinking that some of the other more intangible areas of my life would have been better had I stayed. Some of the more important areas. I don't know. Who's to say how it would have turned out? Maybe I am better off this way. But it's days like today that make me wonder what I was thinking two years ago. =(