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all i can say is im sorry and sorry means nothing.
the person i worry about most is you mi hija
of course roshan but we are both in the same boat. the same things suck. the same thigns are changing. and we cry ourselves to sleep at night for the same reasons.
nothing "feels right" nothing has felt right. i havent writen because i have nothing to offer you that comes from love or goodness all i have is the same shit i try to sleep away from. or run from by not coming home till 3 or 4 so that when i do get home all i can do is pass out so i dont have time to sit with mom or think about life or come online and see the distance which i put there. in a way i feel like i am doing what anthony did when he went to klein and he had other people and he was just finding himself or maybe just spending time and we didnt see him as much and i didnt understand until we fought about it. but with me i mean i have found beautiful people but they aren't beautiful witht he same intensity that the people i already had are. puccio is a savior though. he takes this shit and calls to check and knows when i am crying and then when i say i am not rambles and asks the next day.
the highlight this week was definately roshan 2k4 bday. i love our pictures and i have plans for anniversary 2k4 which should be even better i think then my plans for his birthday.
the person i worry about most is you mi hija
of course roshan but we are both in the same boat. the same things suck. the same thigns are changing. and we cry ourselves to sleep at night for the same reasons.
nothing "feels right" nothing has felt right. i havent writen because i have nothing to offer you that comes from love or goodness all i have is the same shit i try to sleep away from. or run from by not coming home till 3 or 4 so that when i do get home all i can do is pass out so i dont have time to sit with mom or think about life or come online and see the distance which i put there. in a way i feel like i am doing what anthony did when he went to klein and he had other people and he was just finding himself or maybe just spending time and we didnt see him as much and i didnt understand until we fought about it. but with me i mean i have found beautiful people but they aren't beautiful witht he same intensity that the people i already had are. puccio is a savior though. he takes this shit and calls to check and knows when i am crying and then when i say i am not rambles and asks the next day.
the highlight this week was definately roshan 2k4 bday. i love our pictures and i have plans for anniversary 2k4 which should be even better i think then my plans for his birthday.