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I dont do anything right anymore... no matter how hard i try its just not enough to make you happy... im always getting blamed for it and its really starting to piss me off.. im not gunna let my self be like i was .. if we end up not being with eachother i want to be friends but you dont wanna do that and i cant just cut you out of my life like that because you mean everything to me... somehow i think this is gunna be an ugly road to go down and its gunna take everything out of us... your always yelling at me and i end up crying yesterday i will never forget it was the first time you told me to "SHUT UP" you were done talking and not listening to me so it was my turn... I reammber like 5 months ago when we got into a lil fight and you turned up the music i was like why dont you just tell me to shut up then and you said because i dont say that to you... what happened to us were fallin apart and i cant stand to see this happen because i love you so much and we spend more time fighting then being togeather and that tears me in to pieces when you deleted your lj that just made me more pissed lik eyou dont even care to keep a journal with me... sometimes i feel like i cant tell you anything becuase you'll get mad at me and another fight happens ... what happened to when we used to laugh what happend... thats what makes me cry at night bcause i wanna fix it so bad but i know theirs nothing i can do to make it better bettween us im jsut scared if you screw up eveything is gunna fall.. it just scares me because we are totally going on diffrent paths and the ends never meet up ... and the summers comeing and i dont know what we will do ... its all up to you