Jun 23, 2005 14:13
sometimes i am totally in love with chris-i mean i'm in love with him anyway, but sometimes he's all i think about and i still get that childish, giddy feeling like we're just starting out even though its already been over a year. i take this as a good sign.
however, we got into an arguement the day before yesterday about things that i have had to endure since we've been together, and in all honesty, if you take the two times i made him mad and compare it to how many times he's made me upset (which really is only like, 4 times) he has nothing to be upset with me about. i just feel like because i love him and i am forgiving that we are still together; honestly, had he been someone else and i had been younger i would have already have left. i'm not one to stick around and try to work things out, i never have been, and instead of trying to get through a situation, i run from it. so imagine my frustration when i try and cope with incidents that have happened both right before we started dating and after we've been dating. its different though; this time around, i feel like its right, its the right guy, and the right time. mom and i talked about my wedding yesterday. she would never even think about talking about me getting married before i dated chris. she wants me to marry him.
:)