pans ho!
okay so tonight....after dinner me jen and amanda sat in jens car talking for awhile, we were listening to Green Day- Good Riddence, and it made us all think about the near future....the very very near future and how everythings going to change soon. we have like only a few more months to be "kids" and then we're going to have to grow up....IM NOT READY TO GROW UP!!! :'( this is seriously the craziest thing ever. I was just a freshman and now all of a sudden im a SENIOR! whaaaaaaaat is happening????? this is not cool....i was finally adjusting to the way everything is and now it's going to change again....ugh this is crazy.....growing up is not cool and it shouldnt happen. and this whole surgery thing with it being this year....my senior year im missing out on everything, well not everything because i have good people in my life who include me in a lot but still its my senior year, im missing homecoming, im missing 6 months of school and then i'll be back in time to graduate. i dunno man it's all so crazy and confusing and stressful and depressing. who knew that one song could make you think about so many things?
im just scared :(