same old story not much to say.. hearts are broken everyday
uneventful day until lunch. nik, wyatt, candace, and jessica all made alex ask me out which i hate because then its like, they only ask you because they were forced to. but anyway he asked me out on the way back from lunch and then i left to go get ready for the pep rally and met christy down at the press box to get ready. and we practiced a few times and waved to a bunch of people. alex, wyatt, brandon and all them were sitting right in front of us and they kept turning around and waving. watched everyone come into thestadium and then we got to sing. the begining actually wasnt that bad. heather was saying how good it sounded but then christy forgot the harmony and completely dropped out and then she came back in and then it turns out we had started off way too high and the part where i was supposed to go up high came and i thought i could hit it and i couldnt and i tried and i sounded so horrible and dont tell me it didnt because it did. it REALLY did. well me and christy were embarassed beyond beleif so we hid in the press box and watched the pep rally from there. it wasnt that bad but i was totally humiliated. then we went back to our homerooms and everyone was being nice, even andrew and zach. then i went to feild hockey and no one even mentioned it so i felt better. then we left from there early to go to chorus rehersal and i got 300 hugs from my friends. i love them.. and mr.parrish was being really nice. poor christy was a wreak--she didn't even stay to sing at the game. i felt so bad for her. i on the other hand had to sing since im the one who goes up and i'd be reallt disapointd in myself if i let this ruin everything i've worked for these past three years. im still totally bummed though. the thought of a solo makes me queasy... so much for o holy night.. my confidence is at a zero right now... =(
i love you alex. <3