Just one of those days...
for anyone that cares to read...
so this has probably been the hardest and most painful 2 weeks.i love my friends who are there for me. so its almost been a year that ive been out here...this has gone by so fast and i never really had time to stop and realise all that ive gone through. starting in a new state & having to do everything over..its hard to deal with and i cant beleive this actually happend to me. i would have never imagined leaving all my family, my friends, my school that was so awesome & i had so much fun at, and everything that was familiar to me until it became a reality. the fact that i was moving for good never settled in until i left for the airport and drove away from everyone i loved..my bestfriends, my boyfriend, my town. ive realised that most of my memories of new jersey have become a mixed blur and its hard to imagine that i spent 15 years of my life there. it seems like ive been in california forever. so in the past few days ive become overwhelmed with what has happend to my life..the things & people i miss terribly but ive realise ive made some amazing friends and created great memories in california so far. its only been one year and ive had to grow up so much and be pretty much alone for a little while.
so i just needed to get that off my back and realise my life has completely changed and theres nothing i can do to get my old one back. so i guess i need to look at the positives right now and think about the present...not dwell on missing the past.
hopefully things can start to look up...