been over a month
no much to tell, really the only reason i am doing this is because i need to get a message to someone and i know shell read it here, or someone she knows will read it here and forward that information to her.
melissa,
i got your previous messages and im glad you descided to realize that i did nothing wrong except be a friend to you, but all that being said our friendship can no longer continue. i cannot keep being your friend and then get hurt every 6 months. its to much for me to bear anymore. i have no hard feelings to you and i hope you have none towards me. and if i ever see you again ill say hi, smile, and prolly even talk to you for a while. but the is going to be it. there is more to this descision then just me being hurt. but the lack of effort to do anything but send me an instant message. thats not what people who truly want someone as a friend do. you could have called, emailed, or even messaged me when i was actually online. i tried doing all of those things before i ended up doing this, but...im block on your aim, i dont know the name you messaged me with because i read it and then closed it. you aol mail sent me a message back, and your phone number changed and you never gave me the new one. after doing all that i descided its not worth it. its nopt worth going through all the pain to be friends with someone who at the flip of a coin will throw all i have done for them back in my face and call it off. its not worth trying to find someone who obviously doesnt want to be found. its been a long time since me and you meet. we both have changed quite a bit. ive learned alot since that day. but the biggest thing that i learned was that true friends, real friends, care about more then just themselves in a friendship. the friends i have now call me if they even hear from someone that something is wrong. they come visit me if they find out im having a bad day. they do things that tell me that they genuinely care about me and my wellbeing. as i thought about it more and more, that didnt happen much between us. i was there for you the whole time. you were for me only at our last attempt, and at my greatest time of need, when all i needed to know what that you did care about me that you didnt say those aweful things that people had told me you said. when i was giving you the chance (like all friends should) to explain yourself and let me hear your side of the story, you shuned me. all because i wouldnt tell you waht kristina had said to me. which is the exact same thing i did to her after i talked to you. but she didnt tell me to fuck off. you did.....many times. so, the pain, the betrayal, and the lack of effort to keep a friendship are all reasons why its not going to happen. the same as i promised you (and untill you tried to contact me i had kept) please just dont talk to me any more. if we happen to pass eachother on the street. a friendly hello or wave is all that is needed. but i am not going to sit here and let you keep pulling me into something that really never was or ever will happen.
i once told you i would always be there for you, and had you given me that chance, i would have
take care
Dusty
melissa,
i got your previous messages and im glad you descided to realize that i did nothing wrong except be a friend to you, but all that being said our friendship can no longer continue. i cannot keep being your friend and then get hurt every 6 months. its to much for me to bear anymore. i have no hard feelings to you and i hope you have none towards me. and if i ever see you again ill say hi, smile, and prolly even talk to you for a while. but the is going to be it. there is more to this descision then just me being hurt. but the lack of effort to do anything but send me an instant message. thats not what people who truly want someone as a friend do. you could have called, emailed, or even messaged me when i was actually online. i tried doing all of those things before i ended up doing this, but...im block on your aim, i dont know the name you messaged me with because i read it and then closed it. you aol mail sent me a message back, and your phone number changed and you never gave me the new one. after doing all that i descided its not worth it. its nopt worth going through all the pain to be friends with someone who at the flip of a coin will throw all i have done for them back in my face and call it off. its not worth trying to find someone who obviously doesnt want to be found. its been a long time since me and you meet. we both have changed quite a bit. ive learned alot since that day. but the biggest thing that i learned was that true friends, real friends, care about more then just themselves in a friendship. the friends i have now call me if they even hear from someone that something is wrong. they come visit me if they find out im having a bad day. they do things that tell me that they genuinely care about me and my wellbeing. as i thought about it more and more, that didnt happen much between us. i was there for you the whole time. you were for me only at our last attempt, and at my greatest time of need, when all i needed to know what that you did care about me that you didnt say those aweful things that people had told me you said. when i was giving you the chance (like all friends should) to explain yourself and let me hear your side of the story, you shuned me. all because i wouldnt tell you waht kristina had said to me. which is the exact same thing i did to her after i talked to you. but she didnt tell me to fuck off. you did.....many times. so, the pain, the betrayal, and the lack of effort to keep a friendship are all reasons why its not going to happen. the same as i promised you (and untill you tried to contact me i had kept) please just dont talk to me any more. if we happen to pass eachother on the street. a friendly hello or wave is all that is needed. but i am not going to sit here and let you keep pulling me into something that really never was or ever will happen.
i once told you i would always be there for you, and had you given me that chance, i would have
take care
Dusty