I can't keep yawing please somebody save me
So I have been thinking about everything and I have changed alot of what im doing..
First I was going to take summer classes and move out in late June, but I changed my mind.
When school ends (in a few weeks) im going to go back home for the summer until I move on campus in August.
It would probaly be the best for me and Q. I cant stand to see him everyday and not want to talk to him, and not want to try to fix it. I need the summer to get my self together and I dont think living here the rest of the time with him would help.
I will pay my half of all the rest of the months I would have been here for rent because im not gonna do that 2 him, it would only be fair.
So I met with my advisor today and I scheduled my classes for next fall..
Im taking 4, 2 on M,W and 2 on T,Th.. And I don't have any classes on friday.. Yipee! Much better than how my classes are this semester..
Next year im going to be on the grind.
Everything is looking up, but I still feel horrible about what has happend. I wish it never happend, I wish I could go back in time and erase everything I did that has hurt him, because I never wanted to hurt him. But I can't. He deserves what makes him happy, he deserves the best and I Couldn't give that to him.
( If he ever left me I wouldn't even be sad no
Cause there's a blessin' in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all )
I guess thats the positive way to look at it. yup.
First I was going to take summer classes and move out in late June, but I changed my mind.
When school ends (in a few weeks) im going to go back home for the summer until I move on campus in August.
It would probaly be the best for me and Q. I cant stand to see him everyday and not want to talk to him, and not want to try to fix it. I need the summer to get my self together and I dont think living here the rest of the time with him would help.
I will pay my half of all the rest of the months I would have been here for rent because im not gonna do that 2 him, it would only be fair.
So I met with my advisor today and I scheduled my classes for next fall..
Im taking 4, 2 on M,W and 2 on T,Th.. And I don't have any classes on friday.. Yipee! Much better than how my classes are this semester..
Next year im going to be on the grind.
Everything is looking up, but I still feel horrible about what has happend. I wish it never happend, I wish I could go back in time and erase everything I did that has hurt him, because I never wanted to hurt him. But I can't. He deserves what makes him happy, he deserves the best and I Couldn't give that to him.
( If he ever left me I wouldn't even be sad no
Cause there's a blessin' in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all )
I guess thats the positive way to look at it. yup.