For a moment I wasn't in this shitty world
Last night I had a dream that me and Q were back together and we were at the park having a picnic and just laughing and we ran to the swings, the dream felt like it lasted forever.. But then I woke up...
Thinking, thinking, and more thinking is what im doing here.. It hasnt been as bad as I thought it would be.. I have my moments as you all can read on here in my past few entrys..lol
So I'm going back to Louisville to go to my cousins graduation! Im really proud of him :) Even though you didnt go to mine (DIE DIE BITCH DIE LOL) I will still go to yours. Love you Nick! :)
And I will be going back to my apartment, because I almost forgot all my clothes, the cords to my dvd player (brought back the dvd player but not the cords lol), my ps2, tv etc... I will see Quartez ofcourse.. Its going to be hard.. Im so exicted to just see his face just to be able to be in his presence. But its going to bring everything back to just walk in my apt..
I really wish I could go to his graduation this wensday.. I had a plan that me and my mom was going to suprise him and show up. But I can't.. I really think I would be a emotional wreck.. I do not want to cry at his graduation looking crazy and a fool! and I know I need to let him be. I dont want to be some psycho stalker to my ex bf..
I'm thinking about getting a little doggy.. This saturday me jenn and mom went and looked but they only really had big dogs.. I think I really want a dog like buttons! I miss him so much.. So when I go to Louisville I'm going to look! I need me a little doggy to love and take care of.. lol
Thinking, thinking, and more thinking is what im doing here.. It hasnt been as bad as I thought it would be.. I have my moments as you all can read on here in my past few entrys..lol
So I'm going back to Louisville to go to my cousins graduation! Im really proud of him :) Even though you didnt go to mine (DIE DIE BITCH DIE LOL) I will still go to yours. Love you Nick! :)
And I will be going back to my apartment, because I almost forgot all my clothes, the cords to my dvd player (brought back the dvd player but not the cords lol), my ps2, tv etc... I will see Quartez ofcourse.. Its going to be hard.. Im so exicted to just see his face just to be able to be in his presence. But its going to bring everything back to just walk in my apt..
I really wish I could go to his graduation this wensday.. I had a plan that me and my mom was going to suprise him and show up. But I can't.. I really think I would be a emotional wreck.. I do not want to cry at his graduation looking crazy and a fool! and I know I need to let him be. I dont want to be some psycho stalker to my ex bf..
I'm thinking about getting a little doggy.. This saturday me jenn and mom went and looked but they only really had big dogs.. I think I really want a dog like buttons! I miss him so much.. So when I go to Louisville I'm going to look! I need me a little doggy to love and take care of.. lol