in the back of my mind is an automobile.
i volunteered at the sacramento food not bombs today. it was so awesome. and the coolest part was that the guy in charge, herman, was like you should be the head cook, so i was like ok! and then i didnt really do anymore cooking than anyone else but it was still funny to me that he would say i should be the head cook. ahh, it was all so fun and great and then i ate some of the fruit salad we made and it was so good. and it was just so great. now i'm wondering, why in the hell didnt i do something like this earlier? christ! i'm a complete fool!
other than that i leave for arizona on thursday and i am scared and excited and nervous as all hell!
lately i have been really lonely, even though i'm in love and have a really busy life, i am still lonely. i miss my grandma's and my brother. i feel so empty and i have no plans for after americorps. my life is so crazy. i cant figure out what to do. its like i want to go to college but i'm not even smart enough to get myself into college, what sort of primitive child am i?
other than that i leave for arizona on thursday and i am scared and excited and nervous as all hell!
lately i have been really lonely, even though i'm in love and have a really busy life, i am still lonely. i miss my grandma's and my brother. i feel so empty and i have no plans for after americorps. my life is so crazy. i cant figure out what to do. its like i want to go to college but i'm not even smart enough to get myself into college, what sort of primitive child am i?