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so here's the setting: its 2:00 AM and i'm just getting off the computer. i really want to read Tuesdays with Morrie but i know i'm going to fall asleep before i read two words. i get into bed and shut off the lights.
the panic sets in: as i fall asleep, i think of all my day's conversations. it varies from boys to maine to nail polish to the beach to ice cream to new york to driving to being bored and ultimately... to college. thats when my eyes suddenly open wide with shock and realization. i start frantically thinking about where i'm supposed to be, where i should apply, what grades i need, what activities i should sign up for, when my tutoring should start, and dates and places of SATs and ACTs.
my situation: i dont know the answer to any of my questions. i used to know some answers, but not anymore. at 2:30 AM last night, i realized i need to go to a far away school. i'm the type of person who will come home every weekend if possible. i wont make an effort to meet people or to go new places if another alternative is to go home- a place i've been for 17 years and practically nothing changes. so to get the most of my college experience, i need to be very far away from home. in less than 30 seconds, i had jumped out of bed, turned on the light, and ran downstairs to get my Princeton Review book.
my (sleep-deprived) conclusion: California! "Of course!" i think. california's far away. california's warm. california has nice beaches. but more importantly, california was the last state i had been thinking of (while talking to Andrew) so that obviously makes it a good candidate. yes, i think, California is good for me. i like a 6 hour plane ride more than a 3 hour car ride so that works! it's all clicking. i convince myself that California is the place i'm supposed to be and think, "i'm so STUPID for not realizing this before!" now that my life is planned out, i decide its safe to go to bed.
my CURRENT situation: i woke up this morning, wondering if what i had done was a dream. had i actually convinced myself that i would only be happy if i went to college in california? did that actually happen at 3:00 AM last night- no, this morning? i know the answer when i see my Princeton Review book laying open at the end of my bed. i swear to god it was like a drunken episode, with flashbacks and all.
what i learned from the crazy, panic-striken, delirious event: i need to go away. i think if i get into Trinity, i'd still go, just because i loved it so much. but other than that, i need to spread my wings. yea, maybe not california, but somewhere. i know i would REALLY enjoy living near a beach, especially if there's a warm winter (like in Florida, Georgia, maybe the Carolinas, Virginia, etc.) places like california, arizona, nevada would be nice too, but are definitely very far away. ***ATTENTION: i did NOT say "TOO far away" i said "very far away" as in i am STILL keeping my options open!!! this is a very big step for me!!!***
moral of my story for any sophomores, freshmen, 13 year-olds, or 4th graders: START LOOKING FOR YOUR DREAM COLLEGE NOW! do NOT put it off until the end of your junior year like me, or you'll wake up in a cold sweat some night convinced that your life will amount to nothing if you dont read up on every good school in each of the 50 states in America. BUENA SUERTE!
the panic sets in: as i fall asleep, i think of all my day's conversations. it varies from boys to maine to nail polish to the beach to ice cream to new york to driving to being bored and ultimately... to college. thats when my eyes suddenly open wide with shock and realization. i start frantically thinking about where i'm supposed to be, where i should apply, what grades i need, what activities i should sign up for, when my tutoring should start, and dates and places of SATs and ACTs.
my situation: i dont know the answer to any of my questions. i used to know some answers, but not anymore. at 2:30 AM last night, i realized i need to go to a far away school. i'm the type of person who will come home every weekend if possible. i wont make an effort to meet people or to go new places if another alternative is to go home- a place i've been for 17 years and practically nothing changes. so to get the most of my college experience, i need to be very far away from home. in less than 30 seconds, i had jumped out of bed, turned on the light, and ran downstairs to get my Princeton Review book.
my (sleep-deprived) conclusion: California! "Of course!" i think. california's far away. california's warm. california has nice beaches. but more importantly, california was the last state i had been thinking of (while talking to Andrew) so that obviously makes it a good candidate. yes, i think, California is good for me. i like a 6 hour plane ride more than a 3 hour car ride so that works! it's all clicking. i convince myself that California is the place i'm supposed to be and think, "i'm so STUPID for not realizing this before!" now that my life is planned out, i decide its safe to go to bed.
my CURRENT situation: i woke up this morning, wondering if what i had done was a dream. had i actually convinced myself that i would only be happy if i went to college in california? did that actually happen at 3:00 AM last night- no, this morning? i know the answer when i see my Princeton Review book laying open at the end of my bed. i swear to god it was like a drunken episode, with flashbacks and all.
what i learned from the crazy, panic-striken, delirious event: i need to go away. i think if i get into Trinity, i'd still go, just because i loved it so much. but other than that, i need to spread my wings. yea, maybe not california, but somewhere. i know i would REALLY enjoy living near a beach, especially if there's a warm winter (like in Florida, Georgia, maybe the Carolinas, Virginia, etc.) places like california, arizona, nevada would be nice too, but are definitely very far away. ***ATTENTION: i did NOT say "TOO far away" i said "very far away" as in i am STILL keeping my options open!!! this is a very big step for me!!!***
moral of my story for any sophomores, freshmen, 13 year-olds, or 4th graders: START LOOKING FOR YOUR DREAM COLLEGE NOW! do NOT put it off until the end of your junior year like me, or you'll wake up in a cold sweat some night convinced that your life will amount to nothing if you dont read up on every good school in each of the 50 states in America. BUENA SUERTE!