why me?
whats good? well hope ur doin better than me cuz im fuqqin doin shitty as hell.....i hate life right now as we speak....theres no point to it at all....im going through so much that it is overwhelming me and i just dont know what to do anymore :-( i just wanna go away somewhere for a while and relax and have a chance to think things over and see what the hell i wanna do with the rest of my life....i cant go on like this...im only 17 i should be having a great life enjoying myself wit my friends but instead i dont even wanna go anywhere im just not in the mood i only wanna be wit chris and see him he is the only good thing i have going for me and the best thing in my life....yea i have my best friends too like andrea, christine,tj,and my other close friends like jorge and i have this new friend katie whos pratically my best friend too but shes like my mother! lol seriously shes always tellin me what to do and whats right and wrong but i guess good friends are suppose to but it just gets annoying after a while...anyway hopefully by next year ill be out my house and me and chris will have a place of our own thats the only thing im excited about because im pratically kicked out of my house and ready to drop out if school i can't stand school it's so pointless to me right now....but chris wow what can i say he makes my day brighter when things arent going the way i would like them to go just seeing his smile and hearing his voice puts the biggest smile on my face and makes me feel like i have no worries and im safe now that hes there...i love him so much he means everything to me...hes my whole world...infact my whole universe hes the cutest boy i have ever met just by being hima nd the way he does his cute little things for me and how he treats me is amazing that i dont know where i would be without him..people might htink wow shes full of shit hes so bad to her he doesnt deserve her or they'll say i dont deserve him cuz im a slut or w/e but just remeber we've been together for about a year now and its been hard yea but i wouldnt turn back the clock at all...we both deserve each other and we know it..yea we had and have our ups and downs but who doesnt? it's life. People make mistakes and people need to respect what me and him want and stay out of our business....dont get involved ur not in our relationship so why do you worry?yea i can see my friends worrying about me but they do it cuz they care they dont do it cuz they envy and wanna ruin people's life cuz there life SUCKS...But we dont care me and my baby always have fun together no matter what even if we do get into a lil fight we end up laughing about it.Im never gunna let anyone or anything come in between us and try to seperate us...they tried before and it didnt work so take that into consideration that NOONE i mean NOONE will tear us apart! well anyway im done for now....i have no work today so im prob gunna be wit my man who i love with my whole heart and soul and would give up anything in the world for him!!!!
I Love You Chris!!! :-)