Longest entry of my life, for the longest & hardest day of my life.
This week has been a blast...<-if you didn't catch on that was sarcasim.
So I come home from work after working an 8 hour shift. I come upstairs to go get ready for the plans I made about more than a week ago. My stuff is all in the hallway. Not nicely put out, more like thrown. I start screaming at my mother & little sister. We all get into a huge fight. I'm so enraged, upset, and in such disbelief that my own family would disrespect ALL MY SHIT. While they're all moving my sisters shit neatly in her room, I move mine down into the basement where I have no electricity, heat, air conditioning, or even a fucking fan, nor are the floors finished. I just have two rugs. Josiah comes over helps me move stuff. I tell him to just go because Jada & Gabby are waiting in the car. He tells me 'no' & that they would just have to get over it because he wants to help me. At that moment he was my hero, but that didn't last long. I came upstairs, he had left. He didn't say goodbye, nothing. I look at my phone & see a voicemail, I listen & he's appologizing saying that he left like that and was going to just drop them off and come back, but he didn't want to go back and forth. I start balling my eyes out feeling like nobody cares. I leave my house, I'd do anything to just get the hell out of there. I wanted to call a million people at that time, but the reasons not to kept coming to mind, and I didn't need anymore stress. I needed this to be about me. Everyones so selfish & ignorant now. It's ridiculous. I've been giving myself a break from those people. So I found Jayna outside of Kroger & talked to her, then Jamie came out and told me I should stay at her place. I agreed. I did not want to be home & I needed a friend. Someone who would really listen, and not complain, or stress me out. While we're sitting out there talking guess who drives up & acts like nothing should be wrong? If you can't guess you're dumb as fuck. So finally he asks whats wrong with me, so I tell him unkindly. The rest of the time he was around I didn't pay any attention to him. Jada, Gabby, and Josiah left to get home so that they could sneak out later. For the time being I was at Kroger with Jamie. So she clocked me in, and I worked while in Jeans & a t-shirt. I did Lotto reports because I am so damn good at it, and I enjoy it. Don't ask me why, I just do. Everyone else hates it. So then Josiah & everyone comes back, and we start to leave to go to Waffle House [Jada's first time], get gas & my mother calls. She's furious. I almost get kicked out, but somehow I get out of that. We argue for an hour over the phone. I soon as I get off of the phone Josiah & Jada's mother call. They have to go home. Big trouble. So I hang around with Jamie, she gets off work, we go to QT, her house & have the best time of my life. We laughed so hard, harder than I've laughed in the longest time. Went to work in the morning, and then Josiah came over to help me move my new furniture in. He left & I slept forever.
So I come home from work after working an 8 hour shift. I come upstairs to go get ready for the plans I made about more than a week ago. My stuff is all in the hallway. Not nicely put out, more like thrown. I start screaming at my mother & little sister. We all get into a huge fight. I'm so enraged, upset, and in such disbelief that my own family would disrespect ALL MY SHIT. While they're all moving my sisters shit neatly in her room, I move mine down into the basement where I have no electricity, heat, air conditioning, or even a fucking fan, nor are the floors finished. I just have two rugs. Josiah comes over helps me move stuff. I tell him to just go because Jada & Gabby are waiting in the car. He tells me 'no' & that they would just have to get over it because he wants to help me. At that moment he was my hero, but that didn't last long. I came upstairs, he had left. He didn't say goodbye, nothing. I look at my phone & see a voicemail, I listen & he's appologizing saying that he left like that and was going to just drop them off and come back, but he didn't want to go back and forth. I start balling my eyes out feeling like nobody cares. I leave my house, I'd do anything to just get the hell out of there. I wanted to call a million people at that time, but the reasons not to kept coming to mind, and I didn't need anymore stress. I needed this to be about me. Everyones so selfish & ignorant now. It's ridiculous. I've been giving myself a break from those people. So I found Jayna outside of Kroger & talked to her, then Jamie came out and told me I should stay at her place. I agreed. I did not want to be home & I needed a friend. Someone who would really listen, and not complain, or stress me out. While we're sitting out there talking guess who drives up & acts like nothing should be wrong? If you can't guess you're dumb as fuck. So finally he asks whats wrong with me, so I tell him unkindly. The rest of the time he was around I didn't pay any attention to him. Jada, Gabby, and Josiah left to get home so that they could sneak out later. For the time being I was at Kroger with Jamie. So she clocked me in, and I worked while in Jeans & a t-shirt. I did Lotto reports because I am so damn good at it, and I enjoy it. Don't ask me why, I just do. Everyone else hates it. So then Josiah & everyone comes back, and we start to leave to go to Waffle House [Jada's first time], get gas & my mother calls. She's furious. I almost get kicked out, but somehow I get out of that. We argue for an hour over the phone. I soon as I get off of the phone Josiah & Jada's mother call. They have to go home. Big trouble. So I hang around with Jamie, she gets off work, we go to QT, her house & have the best time of my life. We laughed so hard, harder than I've laughed in the longest time. Went to work in the morning, and then Josiah came over to help me move my new furniture in. He left & I slept forever.