Happy Fathers Day, Father.
Father,
That old saying "Anyone can be a father, it takes someone special to be a daddy" is probably the truest quote I'll ever come across, and the most painful.
You live but what, twenty minutes away, and yet I haven't heard from you in as long as I can remember. Sure, you'll wave or smile like everything is alright when we accidently run into each other, but never once do you call, or stop by. Never once do you send a card, or simply love. Not once, in all my life, can I recall you taking extra time out of your day for the three kids you so long ago abandoned.
Whenever I saw you, I'd ask how come you never call, whereas you'd promptly respond that it was a two way street. Yet, I used to call you all the time. I used to at least try to make the effort, and yet you couldn't do the same. It may very well be a two way street, Father, but you're the adult. You should have been the one trying... But you know, it doesn't even matter now, because I've grown up. We all have.
Your oldest daughter is doing really good for herself. She's had another miscarriage since you've been gone. She's in the process of getting a divorce, and the struggles of living on her own. But she's found someone whom respects her and gives her all the love she needs. She's happy, employeed, and is really doing great for herself.
Your only son too is doing great. He has a girlfriend whom he's been seeing for a couple years now, I do believe. He's graduating from highschool this month, has a job, and intends to take a year off school to figure out exactly what he wants to do, then he wants to go to college. Become a working man. He has this zest about life that makes him perfect.
And me, the once upon at time daddy's little girl. I'm doing good too. I've graduated highschool. Applied to college, I have a full time job, and I'm living on my own two feet. I'm growing closer and closer to my dreams. You should be proud... Cause I did it without you.
We all did.
You know, there's alot of men out there whom would love to have children, and so many whom miss out on that opportunity. Or don't know where they are. Dad's whom would do anything to be with their children... And it's parents like these that I feel sorry for, because here you are perfectly capable of having a relatonship with three kids whom for the longest time thought you still loved them, and yet you choose not to. It's your own decision, thus your own fault. I don't think you realize it, but you walked out on three of the best things in your life. And I know now, you'll never get them back.
You've started a whole new family, and I respect that. But I tried to be part of that family for the longest time. Now I'm older, and more mature. I realize that can't be done. I love my step sister with all my heart. And I love my step mother for as much as I know her. But you, I can't seem to love at all. You abandoned me and my family when we needed you.
It may just be a twenty minute distance that kept us apart before, but now it's the will to move on with my life. I've made it this far without you, Father. I have faith I can make it further. I don't have a criminal record, I'm not out on the streets selling drugs or causing trouble. I didn't drop out of highschool, and I'm not a teenage mother. I'm actually doing something with my life. And I'm doing it on my own.
So thank you, for making me realize that I may have once been daddy's little girl, but I'm all grown up now and I don't need a Father. I have a dad whom takes more time in one day to talk to me, then you have in twenty years.
Anyone can be a father, as you are living proof of that.. So... Happy fathers day. I can give you that much, for without you, there'd have been no me, no older sister, and no little brother. But that's all you've contributed. I guess, in your opinion, that was enough.
That old saying "Anyone can be a father, it takes someone special to be a daddy" is probably the truest quote I'll ever come across, and the most painful.
You live but what, twenty minutes away, and yet I haven't heard from you in as long as I can remember. Sure, you'll wave or smile like everything is alright when we accidently run into each other, but never once do you call, or stop by. Never once do you send a card, or simply love. Not once, in all my life, can I recall you taking extra time out of your day for the three kids you so long ago abandoned.
Whenever I saw you, I'd ask how come you never call, whereas you'd promptly respond that it was a two way street. Yet, I used to call you all the time. I used to at least try to make the effort, and yet you couldn't do the same. It may very well be a two way street, Father, but you're the adult. You should have been the one trying... But you know, it doesn't even matter now, because I've grown up. We all have.
Your oldest daughter is doing really good for herself. She's had another miscarriage since you've been gone. She's in the process of getting a divorce, and the struggles of living on her own. But she's found someone whom respects her and gives her all the love she needs. She's happy, employeed, and is really doing great for herself.
Your only son too is doing great. He has a girlfriend whom he's been seeing for a couple years now, I do believe. He's graduating from highschool this month, has a job, and intends to take a year off school to figure out exactly what he wants to do, then he wants to go to college. Become a working man. He has this zest about life that makes him perfect.
And me, the once upon at time daddy's little girl. I'm doing good too. I've graduated highschool. Applied to college, I have a full time job, and I'm living on my own two feet. I'm growing closer and closer to my dreams. You should be proud... Cause I did it without you.
We all did.
You know, there's alot of men out there whom would love to have children, and so many whom miss out on that opportunity. Or don't know where they are. Dad's whom would do anything to be with their children... And it's parents like these that I feel sorry for, because here you are perfectly capable of having a relatonship with three kids whom for the longest time thought you still loved them, and yet you choose not to. It's your own decision, thus your own fault. I don't think you realize it, but you walked out on three of the best things in your life. And I know now, you'll never get them back.
You've started a whole new family, and I respect that. But I tried to be part of that family for the longest time. Now I'm older, and more mature. I realize that can't be done. I love my step sister with all my heart. And I love my step mother for as much as I know her. But you, I can't seem to love at all. You abandoned me and my family when we needed you.
It may just be a twenty minute distance that kept us apart before, but now it's the will to move on with my life. I've made it this far without you, Father. I have faith I can make it further. I don't have a criminal record, I'm not out on the streets selling drugs or causing trouble. I didn't drop out of highschool, and I'm not a teenage mother. I'm actually doing something with my life. And I'm doing it on my own.
So thank you, for making me realize that I may have once been daddy's little girl, but I'm all grown up now and I don't need a Father. I have a dad whom takes more time in one day to talk to me, then you have in twenty years.
Anyone can be a father, as you are living proof of that.. So... Happy fathers day. I can give you that much, for without you, there'd have been no me, no older sister, and no little brother. But that's all you've contributed. I guess, in your opinion, that was enough.