sometimes I just want to scream
I wonder alot through out the day why I put myself through the shit that I do. I try to do too much. Sometimes I wonder if I really can work all that I do and go to school. It has been going fine until this past two weeks. Shop from home has really been picking up, and Alice has been slowing down, don't get me wrong, I think Alice is great, but in time of rush, shes not helpful, if anything she slows you down. It's alot to handle, I feel like alot of the things that go on I have to oversee, and everyone comes to me with thier questions and everything, which is ok, I like it, but its getting stressful. I just wish I wouldn't have to do more than half of the orders because people can't get their shit together. There is no need to take 2 hours on a $100 order. There is no reason to be bagging the order when the customer is sitting outside waiting, there is no reason for me to have to come rushing in the room to save your ass. No reason. If you are going to like that don't sit there and try to tell other people how to do thier job, back off.
Another thing that pisses me off is when people talk down to me. I hate that more than anything. Especially when people sit there and explain the same thing to me 10 times, when I already know what they are explaining to me! I hate when I tell them I know and they go "I know, but I just want to make sure". Fuck you. Alright, not to be a bitch or think I'm better then you or anything, but chances are I am smarter then you, I just don't act smart because I think its annoying, but I really am very smart, so don't under estamiate me, especially when it comes to work. If I don't understand I'm going to ask, tell me once, unless I ask you to explain again. Damn.
Due to alot, I have decided to distance myself from alot of people and just take time for myself because I have been getting fed up with people's bullshit and the "all about me" fucking attitude. I'm tired of trying to care and trying to carry on converstations with people when all they are going to do is cut me off, and then later ask my why I'm so quite. Maybe if you would shut your fucking mouth I'd say something.
Anyways, I spent the weekend with surg, well actually, he spent the weekend here, but you get the drift. It was nice, even though I slept most of the time he was here due to too much, it was still enjoyable. I'm on vacation in a week and I can't wait, spending time with people that I enjoy and being able to sleep late and just not having to run the show, not that I dislike it, but it's just been rough.
I know after all my rambling you might think I'm in a bad mood or whatever, but I'm actually in a good mood. I'm gunna go cleam up my room and do what ever I want to.
Jess.
Another thing that pisses me off is when people talk down to me. I hate that more than anything. Especially when people sit there and explain the same thing to me 10 times, when I already know what they are explaining to me! I hate when I tell them I know and they go "I know, but I just want to make sure". Fuck you. Alright, not to be a bitch or think I'm better then you or anything, but chances are I am smarter then you, I just don't act smart because I think its annoying, but I really am very smart, so don't under estamiate me, especially when it comes to work. If I don't understand I'm going to ask, tell me once, unless I ask you to explain again. Damn.
Due to alot, I have decided to distance myself from alot of people and just take time for myself because I have been getting fed up with people's bullshit and the "all about me" fucking attitude. I'm tired of trying to care and trying to carry on converstations with people when all they are going to do is cut me off, and then later ask my why I'm so quite. Maybe if you would shut your fucking mouth I'd say something.
Anyways, I spent the weekend with surg, well actually, he spent the weekend here, but you get the drift. It was nice, even though I slept most of the time he was here due to too much, it was still enjoyable. I'm on vacation in a week and I can't wait, spending time with people that I enjoy and being able to sleep late and just not having to run the show, not that I dislike it, but it's just been rough.
I know after all my rambling you might think I'm in a bad mood or whatever, but I'm actually in a good mood. I'm gunna go cleam up my room and do what ever I want to.
Jess.