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i have the biggest urge to get "something worth fighting for" tattooed on my back... i have no idea why
edit: 11.36am
Rara this made me think of you - i found it on ljsecret haha...
edit - 2.04pm
well i just had a missed call from the guy i was with saturday night... so i rang him back... and he was like yeah i wanted to sit down and have a proper chat with you about what you want out of this... so yeah basically he said he's not looking for a girlfriend at the moment just an acquaintence ... and in my head all i can hear is this little voice saying "SEE!!!!! i told you you were never good enough for him!!!" and i mean i think he wants to see me again but we're oging to have a chat tomorrow night... so basically it'll be i think you're great and i like sleeping with you but that's all your good for....
edit - 3.57pm
FUCKING HELL!!!! i hate being this big fucking over-thinker!! i'm so so glad that when i spoke to jerry he said sorry for not calling me last night... and i said nah that's cool i just thought you were blowing me off! i'm so fucking proud of myself!!! it sucks coz i can be honest with him yet i know we'll probably never "be" together ... i hate that i'm his rebound.. but at the same time i'm willing to let him do whatever because at least i'll feel loved even just for a little while... i'm so sick of being alone i just love the fact that he snuggled with me
edit: 11.36am
Rara this made me think of you - i found it on ljsecret haha...
edit - 2.04pm
well i just had a missed call from the guy i was with saturday night... so i rang him back... and he was like yeah i wanted to sit down and have a proper chat with you about what you want out of this... so yeah basically he said he's not looking for a girlfriend at the moment just an acquaintence ... and in my head all i can hear is this little voice saying "SEE!!!!! i told you you were never good enough for him!!!" and i mean i think he wants to see me again but we're oging to have a chat tomorrow night... so basically it'll be i think you're great and i like sleeping with you but that's all your good for....
edit - 3.57pm
FUCKING HELL!!!! i hate being this big fucking over-thinker!! i'm so so glad that when i spoke to jerry he said sorry for not calling me last night... and i said nah that's cool i just thought you were blowing me off! i'm so fucking proud of myself!!! it sucks coz i can be honest with him yet i know we'll probably never "be" together ... i hate that i'm his rebound.. but at the same time i'm willing to let him do whatever because at least i'll feel loved even just for a little while... i'm so sick of being alone i just love the fact that he snuggled with me