you were one w/ the freaks.

[only_in_thee]

last night i was driving home w/ my mom. she was freaking out pointing at a house that was all lit up and x-massy, and she was like..LOOK KATIE! but i just stared straight ahead and pretended not to notice she was talking, and interrupting my favorite song i had put on so she could hear it. then she proceded to talk about how dad and her would take my brothers and i to go christmas light looking. she told me how happy we were. i thought about how she probably wonders why its not so easy to make us happy. she can't just show us pretty lights anymore and make things all okay. its sad that she didn't grow up w/ me. she just kinda stays 10 years old all the time. crazy woman.
on another note, i feel really out of touch w/ everyone. like graham, and peter and those kids. i don't want a show to go to, i just want to see them and hold them.
another note. i'm getting really fat. anyone have addys address?