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This will solidify the fact that I am completely insecure and I just wish I were quite numb. If I weren't really here I would understand, but I am and I don't, so don't think I want to care because secretly I don't. I just want to scream until I have no voice, until I throw up. I want to fight until I kill the parts that are foreign and frightening. I want to punch something so hard that I break it, because if I don't break it, it will break me. I think you should just give up. I'm lost, and I don't intend to be found until I do some significant swimming under my covers.