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It would be a lie if I were to say it is with deepest sympathy that I make myself get over him. I simply refuse to care anymore. Because really, what's the point? I'm seventeen, he's eighteen. I live in Iowa, he lives in Washington. We'll never actually meet, so why even bother? I have a lot of good reasons for me to get over him, really I do. They just refuse to come to me right now.
I need to make a lot of changes with my life. It's just not working out right now. I've no idea where I want to go from here. And even here, I don't like. I need to start applying myself before I ruin any chance at a future.
All I know, is I want to do something that has a level of passion that I can't find anywhere else. The only places I come close to finding the sort of passion I'm looking for is with musical theatre. *sighs* But I know, I'll never make anything in that career. I can't sing. Well, I can, just not well.
All I know is that I'm not content with life right now. That's not to say I'm not happy. I am, very much so. But I just yearn for something else, something I'm not experiencing. Something my entire body is aching for. I feel so claustrophobic in the life that I lead right now.
Sometimes I hate livejournal, or any blog I suppose. I mean, a lot of times I put stuff on here, so people will tell me what they think. But, no one ever comments. *shrugs* It's not that I mind. Well, actually I do kind of. I guess it feels like there's no one out there. And I know that's not true, and I know I'm probably being insecure, but that's how it feels. I'd like to say that's somethign I can't help, but I know that I can. At least, I'm sure that's what all the self-help books that are out there say.
Meh. I'm in one of those happy/depressed moods. I don't know what to think right now.
I need to make a lot of changes with my life. It's just not working out right now. I've no idea where I want to go from here. And even here, I don't like. I need to start applying myself before I ruin any chance at a future.
All I know, is I want to do something that has a level of passion that I can't find anywhere else. The only places I come close to finding the sort of passion I'm looking for is with musical theatre. *sighs* But I know, I'll never make anything in that career. I can't sing. Well, I can, just not well.
All I know is that I'm not content with life right now. That's not to say I'm not happy. I am, very much so. But I just yearn for something else, something I'm not experiencing. Something my entire body is aching for. I feel so claustrophobic in the life that I lead right now.
Sometimes I hate livejournal, or any blog I suppose. I mean, a lot of times I put stuff on here, so people will tell me what they think. But, no one ever comments. *shrugs* It's not that I mind. Well, actually I do kind of. I guess it feels like there's no one out there. And I know that's not true, and I know I'm probably being insecure, but that's how it feels. I'd like to say that's somethign I can't help, but I know that I can. At least, I'm sure that's what all the self-help books that are out there say.
Meh. I'm in one of those happy/depressed moods. I don't know what to think right now.