I hate myself
I hate myself.... why cant i just forget about people and blow my friends off whenever i feel like it? I dont want this pain anymore... i dont know what to do anymore. I cant help but to be a friend, but at the same time... i want to be able to not care so that it wouldnt hurt. This Sunday i am leaving town. I dont know where i am going... or why but i just want to get out of town. I'll prolly leave either Sat night or Sun morning. And im not coming back until Monday night. So obviously i wont be driving across the country, but out of town will sufice for the time being. I just want things to be normal again... i want my best friend back... i want my babygirl back and most of all i want to be able to be alone without being lonely... i cant even sleep in my own bed by myself.