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I had a very long day of studying today in the common room with most of my fellow Gryffindor 5th years. Even so, I'm still really worried about potions...and Transfiguration.
But I'm looking forward to clubbing tonight with Harry, Lisa, and Ron. I think a break from the chaos is well deserved for all of us.
Despite all the rumors that have been going around, and the risk of starting more, I'm really excited about spending some time with Harry tonight, in close proximity, no less. Away from people who will talk, and away from Hannah.
And it bothers me that I sound so evil when I say, "Away from Hannah," because she's my friend. And I don't want to hurt her. But at the same time, I'm so damn selfish all the time. I don't even know what's been going on inside my head these past couple of days. But I know that I felt incredibly guilty when Hannah told me that she didn't believe any of the rumors, and that she knows I'm better than that. Now, I know the rumors aren't true. But am I better than that? Of course I would never 'put out' or anything, but I guess I am secrety pining for Harry.
Oh bugger. What does this mean? What am I going to do? I don't even have anyone to talk to about this, because the risk of it getting out is just way too high.
::Sigh:: I wonder what will happen at the club tonight...we'll just have to wait and see, I suppose.
~Parvati
But I'm looking forward to clubbing tonight with Harry, Lisa, and Ron. I think a break from the chaos is well deserved for all of us.
Despite all the rumors that have been going around, and the risk of starting more, I'm really excited about spending some time with Harry tonight, in close proximity, no less. Away from people who will talk, and away from Hannah.
And it bothers me that I sound so evil when I say, "Away from Hannah," because she's my friend. And I don't want to hurt her. But at the same time, I'm so damn selfish all the time. I don't even know what's been going on inside my head these past couple of days. But I know that I felt incredibly guilty when Hannah told me that she didn't believe any of the rumors, and that she knows I'm better than that. Now, I know the rumors aren't true. But am I better than that? Of course I would never 'put out' or anything, but I guess I am secrety pining for Harry.
Oh bugger. What does this mean? What am I going to do? I don't even have anyone to talk to about this, because the risk of it getting out is just way too high.
::Sigh:: I wonder what will happen at the club tonight...we'll just have to wait and see, I suppose.
~Parvati