. And I wonder .
I think my sister's the grinch. Cuz she's big and green and hairy. Joking. I know I never tell her anything about me or my life and I seem to not care about her but it's not like that. I do care about her life, I guess I've just been selfish because I've been having major problems with myself. And I finally got the guts to tell her one thing - one stupid thing - and i specifically told her not to say anything because I know there would be a problem. But she did anyway. I don't trust people, and every single ounce of trust that I ever take action with, is just shot down completely. One thing - and she couldn't keep her mouth shut. She just couldn't keep it to herself. And then she wonders why I don't hang out with her or tell her anything - well there's your reason. I was so excited. I was pumped to go after school. And I'm never happy but oh, I was so incredibly happy all day. And I come home... and every ounce of happiness is dissolved. And something happens to me where life goes back to normal when I don't mean much of anything and I'm misunderstood and I sit there, daydreaming, depressed, and elsewhere. I wonder if that will ever change. I try. I promise I try. But it gets so hard. Then again, no one said life was easy. And it ends here.
<3 How do I get out of this corner I've pushed myself so far into?
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