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Even more shit than I'd know what to do with. It was the fabric of nightmares.
I can't describe the relief of hugging my mother.. I didn't think she'd come back alright.
Thanks to those of you who were there for me yesterday, especially you, Gio. Sorry for the hysterical calls. Thanks for listening, Cat, and thanks for the support.
I'm really surprised I didn't break down more than I did. I'm surprised I was able to stay composed in public last night..
Hope I didn't bring anyone down.
Thanks, Gio, for letting me crash at your house. Again, I'm sorry for leaving this morning, and for making it a "big deal". I'm sorry if I didn't show enough appreciation. Please know how much I appreciated everything you'd done for me. I honestly don't know if I'd be alive right now if I didn't have you there. The water felt frighteningly inviting.
As for my parents, they're fine. My mother did feel somewhat threatened at points last night, but today, things are calm. My father is going about things as calmly as possible. We even all went out to lunch together, bizarre as it was. My father didn't pawn my mother's jewelry, none of it. Guess he found enough money to leave in what he got in selling the car. She cried about this, because as she said, "he's being too nice about this. I liked it better last night when I was afraid of him."
I don't think anyone will be harmed. I hope no one will be harmed.. It's Christmas, for shit's sake. My "uncle" Brian checked himself into a VA clinic. He really broke down. As odd a relief as it might be, he's probably safest there.
I need to piss. I'd like a cigarette. I take my leave.
I can't describe the relief of hugging my mother.. I didn't think she'd come back alright.
Thanks to those of you who were there for me yesterday, especially you, Gio. Sorry for the hysterical calls. Thanks for listening, Cat, and thanks for the support.
I'm really surprised I didn't break down more than I did. I'm surprised I was able to stay composed in public last night..
Hope I didn't bring anyone down.
Thanks, Gio, for letting me crash at your house. Again, I'm sorry for leaving this morning, and for making it a "big deal". I'm sorry if I didn't show enough appreciation. Please know how much I appreciated everything you'd done for me. I honestly don't know if I'd be alive right now if I didn't have you there. The water felt frighteningly inviting.
As for my parents, they're fine. My mother did feel somewhat threatened at points last night, but today, things are calm. My father is going about things as calmly as possible. We even all went out to lunch together, bizarre as it was. My father didn't pawn my mother's jewelry, none of it. Guess he found enough money to leave in what he got in selling the car. She cried about this, because as she said, "he's being too nice about this. I liked it better last night when I was afraid of him."
I don't think anyone will be harmed. I hope no one will be harmed.. It's Christmas, for shit's sake. My "uncle" Brian checked himself into a VA clinic. He really broke down. As odd a relief as it might be, he's probably safest there.
I need to piss. I'd like a cigarette. I take my leave.