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PRESSURE.
Life is kicking my ass. I need a simple "good night" tonight. I need something that will make up for it all. I need one of those "best nights I've had in a while", because this week has been one of the worst weeks Ive had in a while.. you know?
Nothing life-altering, nothing amazing. Something simple would do; I just ask for a night in which something doesn't go wrong. A night in which those I care the most about aren't ailed by depression, a night in which I'll be free of any physical ailment, in which I won't be left alone with my thoughts. A night in which there are no car crashes, minor or large; no major let-downs; no worries of overdue schoolwork and failing grades; no close friends being deported, no world resting on my shoulders, no worrying over what could happen to a person like him in Hungary; no lives falling to shit around me; no hearing that something you feared all along has come to life, and if only you could've made them listen; no wondering how they've been or what they might think of me now, or over what they might think I've been thinking; no feeling inadequate, no insomnia, no critical eyes, no bad trips, no breakdowns, no deception, no nothing.
... I hope I can fight this depression off.
Life is kicking my ass. I need a simple "good night" tonight. I need something that will make up for it all. I need one of those "best nights I've had in a while", because this week has been one of the worst weeks Ive had in a while.. you know?
Nothing life-altering, nothing amazing. Something simple would do; I just ask for a night in which something doesn't go wrong. A night in which those I care the most about aren't ailed by depression, a night in which I'll be free of any physical ailment, in which I won't be left alone with my thoughts. A night in which there are no car crashes, minor or large; no major let-downs; no worries of overdue schoolwork and failing grades; no close friends being deported, no world resting on my shoulders, no worrying over what could happen to a person like him in Hungary; no lives falling to shit around me; no hearing that something you feared all along has come to life, and if only you could've made them listen; no wondering how they've been or what they might think of me now, or over what they might think I've been thinking; no feeling inadequate, no insomnia, no critical eyes, no bad trips, no breakdowns, no deception, no nothing.
... I hope I can fight this depression off.