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I carry around a lot of worries and anger and anxieties and insecurities. For some reason, driving up to San Francisco seems to set off a lot of them. I need to get over it. It's dumb and embarrassing.
Also I should figure out how to enjoy this cool concert I'm at now.
Also I have a failure mode where I can't get into a performance I'm at and I totally check out. It's not good and doesn't help the people I came with have fun. I've walked out of a few movies and just waited in the lobby for my friends.
I have trouble relaxing and enjoying art when I feel like the time could be better spent some other way. I just often don't spend my time very well when left to my own devices.
And whose fault is that, really?
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alexr_rwx
Original post here: http://alexr-rwx.dreamwidth.org/3453.html
Also I should figure out how to enjoy this cool concert I'm at now.
Also I have a failure mode where I can't get into a performance I'm at and I totally check out. It's not good and doesn't help the people I came with have fun. I've walked out of a few movies and just waited in the lobby for my friends.
I have trouble relaxing and enjoying art when I feel like the time could be better spent some other way. I just often don't spend my time very well when left to my own devices.
And whose fault is that, really?
Cross-posted from
alexr_rwx
Original post here: http://alexr-rwx.dreamwidth.org/3453.html