[Kink Table] [#21]
Title: Kink Table #21
Pairing: Akame
Disclaimer: They're not mine. Sad but true.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Rape fantasy. And yes, this means violence.
A/N: My beta this time was bellemainec. I thought this kink would be easier, but no. I don't think it's everyone's cup of tea, so read at your own risk and no bashing please ♥
The most difficult thing, Kame thinks, is to admit it to himself. That he wants something like that, that he needs it. It takes him a lot of time to come to terms with his own desire, because, he reasons, it is not normal. Wanting to be raped. It is not normal to have fantasies about it every night and wake up with a raging erection. It worried him at first; he tried to stop it without any success. For some time he wondered if the stress was really getting to him, if this lifestyle had finally managed to drive him nuts, and he contemplated telling the management about his dreams or nightmares or fantasies or whatever they are, or going to a psycologist or something. Luckily he decided to do some research on the internet first, because they do say everything is on the internet nowadays. He finds out it is not such an uncommon problem, but it still takes him some time to accept it.
After he does, Kame discovers the most difficult part is yet to come. Because now he has to explain it to Jin. If someone is going to help him with his... problem, then it can be no one other than his lover. He knows Jin is worried too, because of all of those times Kame wakes up in the middle of the night with a loud cry and scurries out of Jin's arms to hide in the toilet for some minutes. Jin asks what is wrong every time after he returns to their bed, and kisses him and holds him in his arms for the rest of the night when Kame answers it is only a nightmare. Kame knows Jin is worried, and the older sometimes insists he should take a few days off work to relieve the stress because that is obviously the cause of his nightmares, but Kame is not able to tell him he dreams of getting raped and wakes up screaming and hard, and needs to go to the toilet to relieve himself.
When he finally decides to explain it to Jin, the other man is confused. Kame tries to explain about the stress of always being in charge, about the feeling of being completely helpless and powerless in the hands of someone else, but it does not look like Jin understands. He frowns and does his best to try and look as calm as possible, but Kame can see he is quite upset. He tells Jin it is fine, but Jin asks his lover to give him a few more days. He still looks upset the next time they sit to talk about it, but he takes a deep breath, lets out a sigh and tells Kame he will do it for him, if that is what Kame wants.
Jin does his own research, and gives Kame a list of things he has read they should do. They sit down to talk about what Kame wants and does not want to happen, and Jin writes everything down carefully. There has to be struggling, Kame says, and blindfolds and gags. Jin has to be rough, like a real rapist would, and though Kame can see Jin does not like the idea much, Jin writes it down on the list. There has to be a safeword too, Jin says, for Kame and himself to use. They agree on 'safeword' being the verbal one, but Kame wants gags, so there has to be a non verbal safeword too. Jin places his index finger in Kame's palm and asks Kame to squeeze it with all the strength he has; that will be their non verbal safeword, Jin says. Kame tells Jin he does not want to know when he will do it, so they arrange Kame will stretch himself every morning and before going to bed, just in case.
Even after talking everything out it takes them time. Jin needs to get mentally ready for what he is going to do. They have to try different scenarios; first they pretend to be just themselves, just Jin and Kame watching a film. Jin wants sex, Kame does not and Jin insists, ends up forcing Kame when the other tries to resist. Jin manages to go as far as tying Kame's hands behind his back with his shirt and pushing him face down on the couch. Kame starts struggling as he hears the sound of Jin's fly being undone, but Jin stops the moment Kame cries out the first anguished “please stop”. Jin shouts the safeword out and rushes to undo Kame's hands before gathering him in his arms, hugging the man tightly to his chest. Kame is surprised at being so suddenly thrown out of the mood, annoyed even, but he forces himself to take a deep breath and calm down when he feels how Jin is shaking. The man has his face burrowed in Kame's neck, telling him again and again how much he loves Kame and how he would never hurt him and that Kame could be sure of that with a voice that sounds too close to sobs. Kame hugs Jin back and promises him he knows and he loves him too.
They have to try a lot of times. Sometimes it is Jin calling the safeword, when what he is pretending to be weights too heavily in his mind and he can't take it anymore, but sometimes it is Kame. He does not know when Jin will do it and he does not want to know, but some days he is more tired than others, some days at work are worse than others and he comes home exhausted and too sensitive to take it. During one scenario Jin pins Kame down on his back only to stop when he sees the fear on Kame's face, and another day Kame comes back from work so tired he forgets to stretch himself and the pain is just too much for him to take.
Kame gets increasingly frustrated as he sees his fantasies unable to come true, but at least, he thinks, he does not need to escape to the toilet every time he wakes up with an erection after one of his dreams, because now that Jin knows what is going on he will hold Kame, kiss him and finish him off before promising they will figure out how to make it work together.
It is a quiet noise, but it is enough to wake up Kame. He sits on the bed carefully, suddenly very aware of every noise in the silent house. It is late, the bright red numbers on his alarm clock read 3.30am. Kame gulps, not daring to move from the safety of his bed. He can hear soft steps in the house, the low rustle of clothes. His heart is beating madly inside his chest and his brain screams at him to move, to jump away from the bed and grab something to defend himself, but his body is unable to move. He is frozen on his bed, covered in a cold sweat and as aware of even the smallest detail of his surroundings as an alert cat.
The door of his bedroom creaks when the stranger opens it and Kame makes a movement as if to stand up, but it is too late. The bulky shadow dashes toward him, and before Kame can react he is out of breath and pressed face down against the sheets. There is a quick kiss pressed against his nape, just the slightlest sign for him to tell it is really Jin holding him down, but then his arms are painfully twisted behind his back and there is a grunt.
“Such a pretty slut we have here, even sleeping naked. Have you ever taken it up the ass, uh? I bet you have, you whore. I bet you like it rough.”
Kame tries to shake him off, to struggle or scream, but then something is shoved into his mouth and he chokes. He feels something metallic and cold closing around his wrists, a rough hand grabbing his hair and pulling his head up. It hurts, and tears well up in his eyes just before a black cloth covers them. It sends Kame into panic and he intensifies his struggles, but to no avail. The man above him laughs with a rough voice at his efforts and gropes his ass. Kame shakes his head, cursing the day he got into the habit of sleeping naked, but it is too late now.
Strong hands pull his legs apart, then a warm body settling in between them, and a long finger probes and pokes his asshole before pushing in. Kame screams behind his gag. He is not able to think, mind consumed by fear and trepidation, focused only on struggling and getting free, on getting rid of the heavy body leaning above his. Tears slide down his cheeks endlessly, dampening his blindfold and the pillow under him. The fear makes it difficult to breath only through his nose and he chokes with the gag constantly pressing against his tongue. His arms and legs hurt from the effort of struggling, but when Jin’s finger presses against his palm he does not squeeze it back.
“Such a cute little hole for me to fuck. You are fighting me so much, but I bet this is all a pose. I bet you like this, don't you, slut? Look at this, you are getting all hard, you are begging to have me inside.”
Kame cries out again, the sound muffled by the gag in his mouth, when a warm big hand closes around his awakening erection. He tries to kick, tries to squirm away to no effect. He feels the denim material of the other's trousers sliding down, rubbing against his thighs, and for a moment his mind is totally clear with the security of what is going to happen next. A plea escapes his lips, but it comes out only as a meaningless cry with the rag still gagging him. Kame closes his eyes behind the blindfold, crying with all hope lost.
He screams when the intrusion comes, the terrible pain spreading from his ass to every fibre of his body. He tenses up even more, making the pain worse as the other won't stop pushing in, grunts of pleasure reaching Kame's ears beyond the constant buzz, but he still does not squeeze the finger that presses again against his palm. Finally he gives up, laying still as the rapist thrusts into him in a fast, punishing tempo, just crying and enduring it. At least until a hand closes around his cock again, and he can't help but tense and arch, pain and pleasure suddenly mixing. There are some words grunted into his ears, hurtful words, but he can't hear them above the buzz. The hand continues pumping his erection and he is getting closer to his climax, the pain from his rear subduing as the pleasure grows.
Suddenly the rapist stops thrusting, and Kame holds his breath for a moment. The rag is pulled out of his mouth and he takes air in through his mouth desperately, coughing and hiccupping. A hand grabs his hair and pulls again, raising his head a little from the pillow.
“I want to hear you scream.”
And so Kame does when the thrusting starts again. He screams in pain and pleasure at the top of his lungs, screams and fights the rapist again. He screams in between gasps and sobs, until his voice is hoarse and his throat burns. He is only able to choke out a sob when he finally comes, dirtying the sheets and the rapist’s hand. The thrusting speeds up as he tenses, too tired to keep struggling anymore. He is almost gone with pain and exhaustion when the rapist finally comes inside him. He shakes and cries out again, sobbing when the other pulls out of him. He feels disgusted as the cum trickles down the back of his thighs and he feels nausea rising in his throat, but he is way too tired now to move, or to even complain when a hard slap lands on his ass. There is a low chuckle behind him and the man spits on his back, calls him a slut before leaving the room and slamming the door behind him. Kame stays on the bed, blindfolded and tied up, tears sliding silently down his cheeks.
Jin lasts for all of ten seconds for the sake of the scenario before dashing back into the room. He rushes to undo Kame's handcuffs and tears away the blindfold, quickly gathering the trembling man into his arms. Jin keeps Kame pressed against his chest, reassuringly caressing his back, until the other man stops shaking, and even then he only pulls away the necessary distance to look at his lover’s face. Kame's eyes are red and puffy, cheeks covered with the traces of dried tears, but he is giving Jin a happy smile. Jin smiles too, doubtfully.
“I- I... Did I hurt you too much?”
Kame shakes his head, leaning in to press a kiss on Jin's lips. His voice is rough and hoarse from all the screaming, but it sounds happy, contented.
“It was better than any fantasy I could have.”
Jin stands up, ignoring Kame's little yelp as he lifts him too and carries him to the bathroom for a nice and long relaxing bath.
“Next time tell me about it sooner.”
Pairing: Akame
Disclaimer: They're not mine. Sad but true.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Rape fantasy. And yes, this means violence.
A/N: My beta this time was bellemainec. I thought this kink would be easier, but no. I don't think it's everyone's cup of tea, so read at your own risk and no bashing please ♥
The most difficult thing, Kame thinks, is to admit it to himself. That he wants something like that, that he needs it. It takes him a lot of time to come to terms with his own desire, because, he reasons, it is not normal. Wanting to be raped. It is not normal to have fantasies about it every night and wake up with a raging erection. It worried him at first; he tried to stop it without any success. For some time he wondered if the stress was really getting to him, if this lifestyle had finally managed to drive him nuts, and he contemplated telling the management about his dreams or nightmares or fantasies or whatever they are, or going to a psycologist or something. Luckily he decided to do some research on the internet first, because they do say everything is on the internet nowadays. He finds out it is not such an uncommon problem, but it still takes him some time to accept it.
After he does, Kame discovers the most difficult part is yet to come. Because now he has to explain it to Jin. If someone is going to help him with his... problem, then it can be no one other than his lover. He knows Jin is worried too, because of all of those times Kame wakes up in the middle of the night with a loud cry and scurries out of Jin's arms to hide in the toilet for some minutes. Jin asks what is wrong every time after he returns to their bed, and kisses him and holds him in his arms for the rest of the night when Kame answers it is only a nightmare. Kame knows Jin is worried, and the older sometimes insists he should take a few days off work to relieve the stress because that is obviously the cause of his nightmares, but Kame is not able to tell him he dreams of getting raped and wakes up screaming and hard, and needs to go to the toilet to relieve himself.
When he finally decides to explain it to Jin, the other man is confused. Kame tries to explain about the stress of always being in charge, about the feeling of being completely helpless and powerless in the hands of someone else, but it does not look like Jin understands. He frowns and does his best to try and look as calm as possible, but Kame can see he is quite upset. He tells Jin it is fine, but Jin asks his lover to give him a few more days. He still looks upset the next time they sit to talk about it, but he takes a deep breath, lets out a sigh and tells Kame he will do it for him, if that is what Kame wants.
Jin does his own research, and gives Kame a list of things he has read they should do. They sit down to talk about what Kame wants and does not want to happen, and Jin writes everything down carefully. There has to be struggling, Kame says, and blindfolds and gags. Jin has to be rough, like a real rapist would, and though Kame can see Jin does not like the idea much, Jin writes it down on the list. There has to be a safeword too, Jin says, for Kame and himself to use. They agree on 'safeword' being the verbal one, but Kame wants gags, so there has to be a non verbal safeword too. Jin places his index finger in Kame's palm and asks Kame to squeeze it with all the strength he has; that will be their non verbal safeword, Jin says. Kame tells Jin he does not want to know when he will do it, so they arrange Kame will stretch himself every morning and before going to bed, just in case.
Even after talking everything out it takes them time. Jin needs to get mentally ready for what he is going to do. They have to try different scenarios; first they pretend to be just themselves, just Jin and Kame watching a film. Jin wants sex, Kame does not and Jin insists, ends up forcing Kame when the other tries to resist. Jin manages to go as far as tying Kame's hands behind his back with his shirt and pushing him face down on the couch. Kame starts struggling as he hears the sound of Jin's fly being undone, but Jin stops the moment Kame cries out the first anguished “please stop”. Jin shouts the safeword out and rushes to undo Kame's hands before gathering him in his arms, hugging the man tightly to his chest. Kame is surprised at being so suddenly thrown out of the mood, annoyed even, but he forces himself to take a deep breath and calm down when he feels how Jin is shaking. The man has his face burrowed in Kame's neck, telling him again and again how much he loves Kame and how he would never hurt him and that Kame could be sure of that with a voice that sounds too close to sobs. Kame hugs Jin back and promises him he knows and he loves him too.
They have to try a lot of times. Sometimes it is Jin calling the safeword, when what he is pretending to be weights too heavily in his mind and he can't take it anymore, but sometimes it is Kame. He does not know when Jin will do it and he does not want to know, but some days he is more tired than others, some days at work are worse than others and he comes home exhausted and too sensitive to take it. During one scenario Jin pins Kame down on his back only to stop when he sees the fear on Kame's face, and another day Kame comes back from work so tired he forgets to stretch himself and the pain is just too much for him to take.
Kame gets increasingly frustrated as he sees his fantasies unable to come true, but at least, he thinks, he does not need to escape to the toilet every time he wakes up with an erection after one of his dreams, because now that Jin knows what is going on he will hold Kame, kiss him and finish him off before promising they will figure out how to make it work together.
It is a quiet noise, but it is enough to wake up Kame. He sits on the bed carefully, suddenly very aware of every noise in the silent house. It is late, the bright red numbers on his alarm clock read 3.30am. Kame gulps, not daring to move from the safety of his bed. He can hear soft steps in the house, the low rustle of clothes. His heart is beating madly inside his chest and his brain screams at him to move, to jump away from the bed and grab something to defend himself, but his body is unable to move. He is frozen on his bed, covered in a cold sweat and as aware of even the smallest detail of his surroundings as an alert cat.
The door of his bedroom creaks when the stranger opens it and Kame makes a movement as if to stand up, but it is too late. The bulky shadow dashes toward him, and before Kame can react he is out of breath and pressed face down against the sheets. There is a quick kiss pressed against his nape, just the slightlest sign for him to tell it is really Jin holding him down, but then his arms are painfully twisted behind his back and there is a grunt.
“Such a pretty slut we have here, even sleeping naked. Have you ever taken it up the ass, uh? I bet you have, you whore. I bet you like it rough.”
Kame tries to shake him off, to struggle or scream, but then something is shoved into his mouth and he chokes. He feels something metallic and cold closing around his wrists, a rough hand grabbing his hair and pulling his head up. It hurts, and tears well up in his eyes just before a black cloth covers them. It sends Kame into panic and he intensifies his struggles, but to no avail. The man above him laughs with a rough voice at his efforts and gropes his ass. Kame shakes his head, cursing the day he got into the habit of sleeping naked, but it is too late now.
Strong hands pull his legs apart, then a warm body settling in between them, and a long finger probes and pokes his asshole before pushing in. Kame screams behind his gag. He is not able to think, mind consumed by fear and trepidation, focused only on struggling and getting free, on getting rid of the heavy body leaning above his. Tears slide down his cheeks endlessly, dampening his blindfold and the pillow under him. The fear makes it difficult to breath only through his nose and he chokes with the gag constantly pressing against his tongue. His arms and legs hurt from the effort of struggling, but when Jin’s finger presses against his palm he does not squeeze it back.
“Such a cute little hole for me to fuck. You are fighting me so much, but I bet this is all a pose. I bet you like this, don't you, slut? Look at this, you are getting all hard, you are begging to have me inside.”
Kame cries out again, the sound muffled by the gag in his mouth, when a warm big hand closes around his awakening erection. He tries to kick, tries to squirm away to no effect. He feels the denim material of the other's trousers sliding down, rubbing against his thighs, and for a moment his mind is totally clear with the security of what is going to happen next. A plea escapes his lips, but it comes out only as a meaningless cry with the rag still gagging him. Kame closes his eyes behind the blindfold, crying with all hope lost.
He screams when the intrusion comes, the terrible pain spreading from his ass to every fibre of his body. He tenses up even more, making the pain worse as the other won't stop pushing in, grunts of pleasure reaching Kame's ears beyond the constant buzz, but he still does not squeeze the finger that presses again against his palm. Finally he gives up, laying still as the rapist thrusts into him in a fast, punishing tempo, just crying and enduring it. At least until a hand closes around his cock again, and he can't help but tense and arch, pain and pleasure suddenly mixing. There are some words grunted into his ears, hurtful words, but he can't hear them above the buzz. The hand continues pumping his erection and he is getting closer to his climax, the pain from his rear subduing as the pleasure grows.
Suddenly the rapist stops thrusting, and Kame holds his breath for a moment. The rag is pulled out of his mouth and he takes air in through his mouth desperately, coughing and hiccupping. A hand grabs his hair and pulls again, raising his head a little from the pillow.
“I want to hear you scream.”
And so Kame does when the thrusting starts again. He screams in pain and pleasure at the top of his lungs, screams and fights the rapist again. He screams in between gasps and sobs, until his voice is hoarse and his throat burns. He is only able to choke out a sob when he finally comes, dirtying the sheets and the rapist’s hand. The thrusting speeds up as he tenses, too tired to keep struggling anymore. He is almost gone with pain and exhaustion when the rapist finally comes inside him. He shakes and cries out again, sobbing when the other pulls out of him. He feels disgusted as the cum trickles down the back of his thighs and he feels nausea rising in his throat, but he is way too tired now to move, or to even complain when a hard slap lands on his ass. There is a low chuckle behind him and the man spits on his back, calls him a slut before leaving the room and slamming the door behind him. Kame stays on the bed, blindfolded and tied up, tears sliding silently down his cheeks.
Jin lasts for all of ten seconds for the sake of the scenario before dashing back into the room. He rushes to undo Kame's handcuffs and tears away the blindfold, quickly gathering the trembling man into his arms. Jin keeps Kame pressed against his chest, reassuringly caressing his back, until the other man stops shaking, and even then he only pulls away the necessary distance to look at his lover’s face. Kame's eyes are red and puffy, cheeks covered with the traces of dried tears, but he is giving Jin a happy smile. Jin smiles too, doubtfully.
“I- I... Did I hurt you too much?”
Kame shakes his head, leaning in to press a kiss on Jin's lips. His voice is rough and hoarse from all the screaming, but it sounds happy, contented.
“It was better than any fantasy I could have.”
Jin stands up, ignoring Kame's little yelp as he lifts him too and carries him to the bathroom for a nice and long relaxing bath.
“Next time tell me about it sooner.”