I just made you to hurt myself
Oh my fucking god, I cant believe this. Nine inch nails came to detroit two months ago, FUCK!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I'm so pissed but then I read NIN is coming around again with Queens of the stoneage so that will fucking rock..... Enev if peggy cant go cause of her grades, my mom said she would love to go to the concert cause she loves NIN espcially closer and my dad would go to a marilyn manson concert and I would feel safe then..
I have spend so much time on the computer being fucking obsessed. My fucking favorite band in the world.
I have stolen everything I see and I have about a hundred pictures now, hmmm gorgous he is a sex god.
I have felt so fake lately and listening to shitty music and being really fucking fake (used it again but its the best word). I have felt so detached and not really here lately like I dont even care. I pretended to be happy and really underneath I could feel that I was burrying my emotions and my true thoughts. God, this music makes me feel like Im myself again and I know I am angrier but I embrace it and welcome it. Its better to feel angry than feel nothing and be dead inside. Do you know what its like to feel like your empty and feel dead? I dont want to go back to that and even though I feel cut off and isolated right now I feel like I understand and I dont pity myself. Highschool will be over soon and I can start my life away from assholes and fuckheads. I guess I got upset cause I saw lauren and I really missed being friends with her, she understood me (that sounds creepy). At least peggy gets how I feel and doesnt try to suger coat everything (that always makes me feel more pissed). I guess Im pissed too cause all my old friends are gone and i would be so happy if they came back and be my friend even though all I did was bitch about them they were still my friends. Music is my everything and I would probably die without it.
Wow, my first personal entry. Now I feel so open and vunerable. This will probably be my last entry in this journal if only I could figure out how to fix my fucking stupid new one and put a background in and everything else is fucked. My dad says my swearing has gotten worse and I think its cause of the music but its not directed towards anyone so he doesnt give a fuck. Saturday I have to go to the mall and get "fragile" cd, nin music video dvd, and a poster. All my money will dissapear. I have to get my dad a morrisey cd too for his birthday, i really need to get a job.
Tommorrow is fucking FRIDAY!!! Thank God.
(I am very bitter today)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I'm so pissed but then I read NIN is coming around again with Queens of the stoneage so that will fucking rock..... Enev if peggy cant go cause of her grades, my mom said she would love to go to the concert cause she loves NIN espcially closer and my dad would go to a marilyn manson concert and I would feel safe then..
I have spend so much time on the computer being fucking obsessed. My fucking favorite band in the world.
I have stolen everything I see and I have about a hundred pictures now, hmmm gorgous he is a sex god.
I have felt so fake lately and listening to shitty music and being really fucking fake (used it again but its the best word). I have felt so detached and not really here lately like I dont even care. I pretended to be happy and really underneath I could feel that I was burrying my emotions and my true thoughts. God, this music makes me feel like Im myself again and I know I am angrier but I embrace it and welcome it. Its better to feel angry than feel nothing and be dead inside. Do you know what its like to feel like your empty and feel dead? I dont want to go back to that and even though I feel cut off and isolated right now I feel like I understand and I dont pity myself. Highschool will be over soon and I can start my life away from assholes and fuckheads. I guess I got upset cause I saw lauren and I really missed being friends with her, she understood me (that sounds creepy). At least peggy gets how I feel and doesnt try to suger coat everything (that always makes me feel more pissed). I guess Im pissed too cause all my old friends are gone and i would be so happy if they came back and be my friend even though all I did was bitch about them they were still my friends. Music is my everything and I would probably die without it.
Wow, my first personal entry. Now I feel so open and vunerable. This will probably be my last entry in this journal if only I could figure out how to fix my fucking stupid new one and put a background in and everything else is fucked. My dad says my swearing has gotten worse and I think its cause of the music but its not directed towards anyone so he doesnt give a fuck. Saturday I have to go to the mall and get "fragile" cd, nin music video dvd, and a poster. All my money will dissapear. I have to get my dad a morrisey cd too for his birthday, i really need to get a job.
Tommorrow is fucking FRIDAY!!! Thank God.
(I am very bitter today)