What I want ranting entry!!!
OoooKAAAAy! lol! You'd have to be with me to see how I say "Okay". Anywho, I thought I'd just write about the things I want. I'M IN A SELFISH MOOD OKAAAY!
[NOTE: The order of this list means nothing, it was totally random]
1. My own place: My gawd! Now I can't wait till I move out. My mom's friend moved in just this weekend, and I don't like her. She's the type of person I don't like. You know those people who have to give their two cents about EVERYTHING!!! She's kinda like that only more sly, she says something but makes it seem like it's a joke. UGH now I have to live with her. I want to be away from home as much as I can but that just interferes with my plan to stay home more often for school. Dude this sounds like I'm so ungrateful. I get to live at home free of charge and just because someone I don't like moves in I want out? Whatever! I'm allowed to rant right?
2. Lose weight: K fuck, I know what you're thinking. "You're already skinny". Yea I am, but I've been gaining since I went on birth control. I have this fear of gaining weight. I've always been the skinny one, I know how stupid and silly that sounds, but it means one less problem to my fragile self-esteem. Some of you don't know what an Emo I used to be, I wallowed in self-pity, I had such a low self-esteem, practically nothing. It's taken so long to get to where I am. I feel good about myself now, I finally look in the mirror and am satisified. I think it's really important to feel good about yourself. So yea, criticize me all you want, but I want to lose at least 15 pounds.
3. Whiter teeth: LMAO I'm always so paranoid about that. I think that's one of my best feature so it's only natural that I'm paranoid.
4. To be wanted...BY A MAN!!!!: I've never been wanted by a guy, sure for sex, but never for me. And the guys who did want me were only desperate fools; the ones who go after every girl they talk to. LOL! I want to have some one head over heels for me, okay not totally at my mercy cause that's just boring, but you know what I mean.
5. A violin: I'm ready to move onto another instrument. I love music! Mastering violin would be a mile stone for me. I have a thing for stringed instruments, the violin and cello can make such melancholy sounds, mysterious, alluring... well to me anyways. Just put your mind to it, listen to a stringed piece and you'll see.
I suggest you listen to tunes from Apocalyptica.
6. A job!: Omg you have no idea how bad I want a job. I had a kick ass job this past summer, but it was only a term position. It was awesome. Now I just feel like a slob, I went a couple weeks ago and handed in about five resumes but no one has called back yet so I have to go again. Hopefully tomorrow. Yea that's what I'll do tomorrow.
Eh I think that about covers it. If I think of something else I'll make another entry or just add to this one.
Night folks.