What am I supposed to be?
I pose a question to my friends on here, especially ones of my faith (especially Catholics), that has gone unanswered before. It is a question that still confuses me...and no one has been able to answer it.
As a Christian...a Catholic...what am I supposed to be? Liberal? Conservative? Moderate? Anything?
I have been a conservative most of my life. If there are any "liberal" ideals I agree with...you'd have a hard time finding them in my views, being that I see no logic or common sense in liberal viewpoints. So, you would imagine that when I became a Christian, I would be right at home as a conservative (don't confuse being a conservative with being a Republican. I'm an independent.) being that most Christians are conservatives. I don't know any liberal Christians...hell, the term seems almost an oxymoron to me.
During the election last year, I remember reading the US Conference of Catholic Bishops voters guide. In it were many socially conservative ideals I readily agree with. However, there were many "liberal" or borderline "liberal" views, especially on fiscal issues. I've been dumbfounded ever since.
Don't get me wrong...I love my faith! But I cannot bring myself to agree with more liberal viewpoints.
So, what in God's name am I supposed to be?
I also had a long conversation with a friend at breakfast after Mass yesterday. Many people who witnessed my baptism and confirmation told me they were inspired by it. One of them is my aforementioned friend. I told her to stop seeing me as an inspiration because I am a terrible Christian. I get mad all the time. Sin is my middle name...still. I haven't been to the confessional since my favorite priest was transferred. I wished death on anyone who harms anyone I love. I turned a friend away who needed our help. I've lost my temper with my wife and my daughter many times (Lily has been having behavior problems as of late...she smacks people and has bitten Andrea and me).I have really gone off the rails in my prayer life. Maybe I should just pack it in. I keep failing at being a good Christian... I've been so selfish as of late. Physically and mentally, I have been OK...but spiritually, other than going to church on Sunday...I have been piss poor. What the hell am I doing wrong? I know Christ doesn't want me around knowing how bad I have been lately, and my sins have been dragging me down.
Hope the pilgrimage I want to go on will help. Or, maybe someone on here who shares the faith can tell me I am being an idiot...please...I need it.
As a Christian...a Catholic...what am I supposed to be? Liberal? Conservative? Moderate? Anything?
I have been a conservative most of my life. If there are any "liberal" ideals I agree with...you'd have a hard time finding them in my views, being that I see no logic or common sense in liberal viewpoints. So, you would imagine that when I became a Christian, I would be right at home as a conservative (don't confuse being a conservative with being a Republican. I'm an independent.) being that most Christians are conservatives. I don't know any liberal Christians...hell, the term seems almost an oxymoron to me.
During the election last year, I remember reading the US Conference of Catholic Bishops voters guide. In it were many socially conservative ideals I readily agree with. However, there were many "liberal" or borderline "liberal" views, especially on fiscal issues. I've been dumbfounded ever since.
Don't get me wrong...I love my faith! But I cannot bring myself to agree with more liberal viewpoints.
So, what in God's name am I supposed to be?
I also had a long conversation with a friend at breakfast after Mass yesterday. Many people who witnessed my baptism and confirmation told me they were inspired by it. One of them is my aforementioned friend. I told her to stop seeing me as an inspiration because I am a terrible Christian. I get mad all the time. Sin is my middle name...still. I haven't been to the confessional since my favorite priest was transferred. I wished death on anyone who harms anyone I love. I turned a friend away who needed our help. I've lost my temper with my wife and my daughter many times (Lily has been having behavior problems as of late...she smacks people and has bitten Andrea and me).I have really gone off the rails in my prayer life. Maybe I should just pack it in. I keep failing at being a good Christian... I've been so selfish as of late. Physically and mentally, I have been OK...but spiritually, other than going to church on Sunday...I have been piss poor. What the hell am I doing wrong? I know Christ doesn't want me around knowing how bad I have been lately, and my sins have been dragging me down.
Hope the pilgrimage I want to go on will help. Or, maybe someone on here who shares the faith can tell me I am being an idiot...please...I need it.