Thoughts again...
So...An update for maybe 2 people at the most that read this. And to those two people...You rock!
Anywho...An update is when you put information somewhere so people can see what you have been up to. In order to be able to update you must have had something to do. Well, I havnt so really this shouldnt be called an update. But I will consider it. Because I can.
On to the "deep thoughts". I know someone who enjoys reading these from time to time so here goes yet another confusing, meaningless entry about things in my head.
Things such as...Has it ever occured to anyone that we are all so very hypocritical. Some more than others. But at times, its sad. Its nature, and I understand but still. It kinda sucks.
People also complain a lot about so many things. Some things are understandable. Not saying that I am one to judge what is right and wrong. But somethings are commen sence that its human nature. But other things people complain about are things that they themselves cause. Because of something they did or didnt say or do, they are put in the situation which provokes them to complain. Not saying I am not willing to help my friends and peers and listen. I am always up for a good laugh complaint. But at times, I listen to one person to much about the same constant thing that goes along with the second type of complaining, putting yourself there. I dont want to hurt them and say what I think...Like "Shut the f*** up," or "I really dont give a sh*t," or even "Well what the f*** are you expecting?" and finally "Its your own damn fault...dumbass." But I am just not one of those people that could say things like that. Nor even lighter things just gently putting them down. I always want to help my friends. But I guess...
I guess whats going on is that I am discovering that most of these people are really not my friends. Thats it! Ha! But I will still not change what I usually do for them. I still care for them and am willing to be there, although I dont listen.
On another hand, I have so many friends that I love to death and would do anything for because they would do the same for me. I will name a few since they done read this anyway. Ian, Stevo, and Reed. Not that the rest of you dont do anything but these three have shown so much love to me in the past few weeks. Again, not that you havnt or anyone else hasnt but of my close nit friends...They are the most tressured, besides Brice.
Ian...Ian is amazing. Goofy, wild, caring, and just plain kickass. When ever something is wrong I know that I can talk to him. Also, whenever something is wrong and I go off by myself, which I tend to do a lot, he always makes sure I know that he's there for me. He checks up on me, and gives me hugs, but knows when not to bother me. He can see through me when I say Im fine...But a lot of people can. Anyway, hes just plain awsome. He broke his collar bone, went to the hospital and felt bad for "ruining" the party, and still when Im upset he notices and puts other things aside.
Stevo...This kid rocks. Again when I was off on my own the other night, I walked past him and didnt say anything or even acknoledge him. (I know thats spelled wrong but oh well.) But he finished his conversation on the phone and ran to catch up to me and put his arm around me, pulling me close to ask whats wrong. I didnt answer and kept walking but he didnt let go and said "I know something is wrong...Wanna talk?" So I told him some of it and he hugged me and said "None of that matters, we love you no matter what." Then put his arm around me again as we walked to the rest of the group. When I sit on the back of his truck by myself and he noticed, he always comes and checks on me to see whats goin on with me.
Reed...He's black...enough said...Just messin. Nah, hes awsome cause when Brice was working he would pick me up for church and things. When we're alone, we can talk about just about anything. He knows when something is wrong and tracks me down when Ive gone missing. He's in pain after getting hit and Im upset, he ignores that he's in pain and talks to me and helps me.
All of these boys, when Im off on my own and no one knows where I am, they all search out to find me.
Not saying others dont, but them three and Brice dont stop til one of them finds me.
Anywho. I know this isnt the messed up stuff that doesnt make sence like i normally do but I had to get that out.
Anywho...An update is when you put information somewhere so people can see what you have been up to. In order to be able to update you must have had something to do. Well, I havnt so really this shouldnt be called an update. But I will consider it. Because I can.
On to the "deep thoughts". I know someone who enjoys reading these from time to time so here goes yet another confusing, meaningless entry about things in my head.
Things such as...Has it ever occured to anyone that we are all so very hypocritical. Some more than others. But at times, its sad. Its nature, and I understand but still. It kinda sucks.
People also complain a lot about so many things. Some things are understandable. Not saying that I am one to judge what is right and wrong. But somethings are commen sence that its human nature. But other things people complain about are things that they themselves cause. Because of something they did or didnt say or do, they are put in the situation which provokes them to complain. Not saying I am not willing to help my friends and peers and listen. I am always up for a good laugh complaint. But at times, I listen to one person to much about the same constant thing that goes along with the second type of complaining, putting yourself there. I dont want to hurt them and say what I think...Like "Shut the f*** up," or "I really dont give a sh*t," or even "Well what the f*** are you expecting?" and finally "Its your own damn fault...dumbass." But I am just not one of those people that could say things like that. Nor even lighter things just gently putting them down. I always want to help my friends. But I guess...
I guess whats going on is that I am discovering that most of these people are really not my friends. Thats it! Ha! But I will still not change what I usually do for them. I still care for them and am willing to be there, although I dont listen.
On another hand, I have so many friends that I love to death and would do anything for because they would do the same for me. I will name a few since they done read this anyway. Ian, Stevo, and Reed. Not that the rest of you dont do anything but these three have shown so much love to me in the past few weeks. Again, not that you havnt or anyone else hasnt but of my close nit friends...They are the most tressured, besides Brice.
Ian...Ian is amazing. Goofy, wild, caring, and just plain kickass. When ever something is wrong I know that I can talk to him. Also, whenever something is wrong and I go off by myself, which I tend to do a lot, he always makes sure I know that he's there for me. He checks up on me, and gives me hugs, but knows when not to bother me. He can see through me when I say Im fine...But a lot of people can. Anyway, hes just plain awsome. He broke his collar bone, went to the hospital and felt bad for "ruining" the party, and still when Im upset he notices and puts other things aside.
Stevo...This kid rocks. Again when I was off on my own the other night, I walked past him and didnt say anything or even acknoledge him. (I know thats spelled wrong but oh well.) But he finished his conversation on the phone and ran to catch up to me and put his arm around me, pulling me close to ask whats wrong. I didnt answer and kept walking but he didnt let go and said "I know something is wrong...Wanna talk?" So I told him some of it and he hugged me and said "None of that matters, we love you no matter what." Then put his arm around me again as we walked to the rest of the group. When I sit on the back of his truck by myself and he noticed, he always comes and checks on me to see whats goin on with me.
Reed...He's black...enough said...Just messin. Nah, hes awsome cause when Brice was working he would pick me up for church and things. When we're alone, we can talk about just about anything. He knows when something is wrong and tracks me down when Ive gone missing. He's in pain after getting hit and Im upset, he ignores that he's in pain and talks to me and helps me.
All of these boys, when Im off on my own and no one knows where I am, they all search out to find me.
Not saying others dont, but them three and Brice dont stop til one of them finds me.
Anywho. I know this isnt the messed up stuff that doesnt make sence like i normally do but I had to get that out.