Ups and Downs, I guess
Eh..
Life's good.
Not fabulous.
Not horrible.
Just good.
Sometimes you think you know..but then you don't. Or maybe they just make you believe you think you know, but at the end of the day, you know nothing. It is pretty sad, yet inevitable how someone can let you down..or no..how someone can change in such a short amount of time. And the worst thing is that you don't really know what caused that change. Whether it was you, or someone else (which would make things harder to handle), something has to cause it. And I don't know what. And I don't like not knowing what. And I'm afraid of asking what that something might be because sometimes, people can be pretty mean. I am a sensitive person, I have noticed. And lack of "touch" and carefully word picking can certainly emotionally hurt me. Then again, I used to shut myself to any risk of exterior harm when the real harm is taking place inside me.
On another subject, it's really hard for someone to know when to say something, if you're even "allowed" to say it. And it is even worse when you know what to say, but you know they don't want to hear it. Or when they know what you're going to say but they don't care. It is yet more hurtful that you wish and wish they could tell you what's bothering them, just like you tell them whenever something's bothering you. I guess it takes time for someone to open up to people. Some never actually do. What scares me about it is that you don't know if they will ever be able to open to YOU. What if they don't? Does that mean they don't trust you? Does that mean they just can't talk about it? I know some people would rather avoid trouble before bringing it up, but sometimes it is good to have it in the open. I want them to know that they can count on me any time. No matter how great my life may be, or how miserable I might feel at the time, I will always be, not just devoted to them, but thankful because they came to me. Because that means they trust me, right? And I trust them, that's why I tell them what's on my mind. I guess in the end, there's only one person you can trust. But it is really up to you who that person might be...right?
Life's good.
Not fabulous.
Not horrible.
Just good.
Sometimes you think you know..but then you don't. Or maybe they just make you believe you think you know, but at the end of the day, you know nothing. It is pretty sad, yet inevitable how someone can let you down..or no..how someone can change in such a short amount of time. And the worst thing is that you don't really know what caused that change. Whether it was you, or someone else (which would make things harder to handle), something has to cause it. And I don't know what. And I don't like not knowing what. And I'm afraid of asking what that something might be because sometimes, people can be pretty mean. I am a sensitive person, I have noticed. And lack of "touch" and carefully word picking can certainly emotionally hurt me. Then again, I used to shut myself to any risk of exterior harm when the real harm is taking place inside me.
On another subject, it's really hard for someone to know when to say something, if you're even "allowed" to say it. And it is even worse when you know what to say, but you know they don't want to hear it. Or when they know what you're going to say but they don't care. It is yet more hurtful that you wish and wish they could tell you what's bothering them, just like you tell them whenever something's bothering you. I guess it takes time for someone to open up to people. Some never actually do. What scares me about it is that you don't know if they will ever be able to open to YOU. What if they don't? Does that mean they don't trust you? Does that mean they just can't talk about it? I know some people would rather avoid trouble before bringing it up, but sometimes it is good to have it in the open. I want them to know that they can count on me any time. No matter how great my life may be, or how miserable I might feel at the time, I will always be, not just devoted to them, but thankful because they came to me. Because that means they trust me, right? And I trust them, that's why I tell them what's on my mind. I guess in the end, there's only one person you can trust. But it is really up to you who that person might be...right?