Over
So I've pretty much given up on everything. and everyone. there's a piece of gratitude towards certain people, but since when has love saved humanity?
I've become a cold-hearted bitch. Especially towards a certain someone. And I'm sorry I truly am. But I don't think you understood what I meant when I said I can't open up to someone when I start having feelings for them. It's not friends love.
I know I said I would fight my problem with my family and stuff. I've come to two options. They can do whatever they want to do with me. take me to the states or paris or leave me here. OR...i can fight their authority and stay here..even if its for a short while until my heart stops beating, i'll spend my last summer with that person.
i couldnt help but crying just a little when i tried talking about it. but i warned you about it. i can't talk about it without crying.
school is going fine. but is it life? is it worth living for? does happiness depend on it? no. no and no. my soul wants to be in one place. canada. but i know that will never happen because i realised my mistakes too late.
i made a few hundred mistakes last weekend. mistakes i havent told anyone about. and i apologize to the two important people in my life for not sharing this with you but i've given up on life as it is. consider yourself free from my being.
i've been punished for caring. punished for loving and trying. and wanting a second chance to prove the world wrong from it's theory of "what she's made of"...let me be punished cos i dont give a damn anymore.
I've become a cold-hearted bitch. Especially towards a certain someone. And I'm sorry I truly am. But I don't think you understood what I meant when I said I can't open up to someone when I start having feelings for them. It's not friends love.
I know I said I would fight my problem with my family and stuff. I've come to two options. They can do whatever they want to do with me. take me to the states or paris or leave me here. OR...i can fight their authority and stay here..even if its for a short while until my heart stops beating, i'll spend my last summer with that person.
i couldnt help but crying just a little when i tried talking about it. but i warned you about it. i can't talk about it without crying.
school is going fine. but is it life? is it worth living for? does happiness depend on it? no. no and no. my soul wants to be in one place. canada. but i know that will never happen because i realised my mistakes too late.
i made a few hundred mistakes last weekend. mistakes i havent told anyone about. and i apologize to the two important people in my life for not sharing this with you but i've given up on life as it is. consider yourself free from my being.
i've been punished for caring. punished for loving and trying. and wanting a second chance to prove the world wrong from it's theory of "what she's made of"...let me be punished cos i dont give a damn anymore.