Yeah I'm at work.. I do NOTHING.
As I drove to work today I wondered if I should continue photography with my messed up camera or not. It's really ashame that I abused it... It wasn't even me that dropped it. It has dropped from higher altitudes before but this just hit the right spot for it to be totaled. I relly haven't liked photo but I think that it becauseI was obligated to sit there in the room an do nothing this semester I would hae independent study and [hopefully] only go in when I had somethign to do. I loved being Ind. Study, free photo supplies when ever I wanted and no real deadlines. It would be with crazy old coot instead of crazy has no idea what she's doing teacher. I really don't know. I don't know if I still feel like doingit, but then I don't want to stop something I've done for the last four years. Idk I am the "Photo Girl" who dates the "Photo Boy" *cough*suck up*cough* I don't know if I feel like relinquishing my tittle just yet, though that little fuck.. Saper is really pissing me off, stupid show off. I kinda wanna go ahead with it to show up his ass... but I don't know if my creativity is there...
I've done SO much art this sememster that my artistic reservoir is low, very low almost dry for that matter. I feel the only thing I can to is draw what I am told to do. Comming up with this AP Studio concentration is proving harder than wearing a backpack with no arms. I just don't t know what I want to do I have ideas but I'm not sure if they are good enough to produce 12 pieces of AP worthy art from. And I really hate working on something for the sake of doing it. I hate not enjoying my work. I also hate not knowing if I'm good enough. [FUCK I forgot to tell LaCour about New Paltz and get the art application..stupid New Paltz].
I think I want to take a painting class... I really have never painted..... idk, drawing I could used too.... but ... idk I think that it's just I can't draw from my own mind very well... maybe I will next semester at WCC Spring 1 has just started so I'll do spring 2 Feb 26... the day of Kimya Dawson's show....in New Paltz. Oh New Paltz so much is going on with you.
I guess this would no existt if I actually worked for my money, HA! What a thought.
I've done SO much art this sememster that my artistic reservoir is low, very low almost dry for that matter. I feel the only thing I can to is draw what I am told to do. Comming up with this AP Studio concentration is proving harder than wearing a backpack with no arms. I just don't t know what I want to do I have ideas but I'm not sure if they are good enough to produce 12 pieces of AP worthy art from. And I really hate working on something for the sake of doing it. I hate not enjoying my work. I also hate not knowing if I'm good enough. [FUCK I forgot to tell LaCour about New Paltz and get the art application..stupid New Paltz].
I think I want to take a painting class... I really have never painted..... idk, drawing I could used too.... but ... idk I think that it's just I can't draw from my own mind very well... maybe I will next semester at WCC Spring 1 has just started so I'll do spring 2 Feb 26... the day of Kimya Dawson's show....in New Paltz. Oh New Paltz so much is going on with you.
I guess this would no existt if I actually worked for my money, HA! What a thought.