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(i just need to say this, cause i have the urge)
HI HIEDI!!!!!!!
so. you know that plans aren't final, and that everyone always hopes for the better plans, right? well talking about them (even though they may not happen) makes me feel happy inside. like wheni talk to becky about living together in our warehouse loft, and how awesome that'll be. or when big cat and i talk about living together in a house with two gay men and having a big gay house life thing.ish. haha. also. when i talk about being a vegabond and just going and living everywhere, those things wont happen but they make me happy to plan. so i'm just going to plan. and you get to read my plans. and if you want to take me seriously on all these things then, go ahead, because i may actually end up doing something one of these days. but hey, listen. i'm in love with myself right now. at this very moment, i feel really good. and i think that if we all just keep breathing and keep on keepin on, then we will all be A'IGHT!
on the other notes... it's amazing up here. i went and hiked around an island yesterday, and went swimming in lake superior, it was nice and refreshingly cold. elizabeth and i had a lot of fun climbing on rocks and hanging out in the water. and just chilling. i really like just having a good time, i do. i feel like sometimes that aspect of me is hindered from existence because i'm a little high maintenence. but i don't want to be.and i try not to be, but sometimes, i can't help it. it's who i am.
i want someone in my life who is going to love me in spite of the fact that i'm high maintenence, and i can be an asshole sometimes. and a bitch other times, and i know that i'm not funny 70% of the time, but i like my sense of humor, and yeah, it's a little sick and twisted sometimes and racist some other times, but hey. i like it. i think i'm funny, and laughter is good for the soul, so my soul is nice and strong and healthy. i don't know if i even believe in souls.
i don't know about god either. a god, the god, gods, buddah, taoism even? i don't know. i believe in the world, the earth, everything together is a higher power. the world knows. she just fucking knows.
i'm moving in september. hopefully to arkansas, then if not i'm going to california, and if not california, maybe to virginia, but that's my plan. and regardless of any one else's plans, those are my plans, first, backup, and backup backup. or A B and C if you will. haha... Dee. hahaa. sorry. i hope that made you smile.
SMILES ARE ALSO GOOD FOR THE SOUL
HI HIEDI!!!!!!!
so. you know that plans aren't final, and that everyone always hopes for the better plans, right? well talking about them (even though they may not happen) makes me feel happy inside. like wheni talk to becky about living together in our warehouse loft, and how awesome that'll be. or when big cat and i talk about living together in a house with two gay men and having a big gay house life thing.ish. haha. also. when i talk about being a vegabond and just going and living everywhere, those things wont happen but they make me happy to plan. so i'm just going to plan. and you get to read my plans. and if you want to take me seriously on all these things then, go ahead, because i may actually end up doing something one of these days. but hey, listen. i'm in love with myself right now. at this very moment, i feel really good. and i think that if we all just keep breathing and keep on keepin on, then we will all be A'IGHT!
on the other notes... it's amazing up here. i went and hiked around an island yesterday, and went swimming in lake superior, it was nice and refreshingly cold. elizabeth and i had a lot of fun climbing on rocks and hanging out in the water. and just chilling. i really like just having a good time, i do. i feel like sometimes that aspect of me is hindered from existence because i'm a little high maintenence. but i don't want to be.and i try not to be, but sometimes, i can't help it. it's who i am.
i want someone in my life who is going to love me in spite of the fact that i'm high maintenence, and i can be an asshole sometimes. and a bitch other times, and i know that i'm not funny 70% of the time, but i like my sense of humor, and yeah, it's a little sick and twisted sometimes and racist some other times, but hey. i like it. i think i'm funny, and laughter is good for the soul, so my soul is nice and strong and healthy. i don't know if i even believe in souls.
i don't know about god either. a god, the god, gods, buddah, taoism even? i don't know. i believe in the world, the earth, everything together is a higher power. the world knows. she just fucking knows.
i'm moving in september. hopefully to arkansas, then if not i'm going to california, and if not california, maybe to virginia, but that's my plan. and regardless of any one else's plans, those are my plans, first, backup, and backup backup. or A B and C if you will. haha... Dee. hahaa. sorry. i hope that made you smile.
SMILES ARE ALSO GOOD FOR THE SOUL