because i didn't have time to do it on both...
October 24, 2005 • Monday
WOW! MY MySpace clock and cell phone are exactly the same time! THAT'S KEWL!
Current mood: stressed
OKAY! Besides that amazing "believe-or-not" phenomenon life is a bit weird at the moment...but when hasn't it been lately??
so i have a ethnobotany midterm on wednesday...and a 10 pager for sociology 300...not including the fact that i have to re-write my whole literature review including using new resources...YAY! for me! life could be better or worse right now...i just need a lot of coffee...MORE COFFEE...no sleep...and even MORE COFFEE...looks like i'll be up for 2 days straight for this one...
sometimes i hate being here because i don't have anyone to suffer jointly with...where we can bitch and moan about the same classes and study with each other...it would be good to have that sort of relationship in my math class for sure!
i have a midterm for oceanography next monday and i think i have to be able to speak with authority on a certain subject in ethnobotany lab tomorrow...i'm HOPEFULLY bringing delul diokang...I HOPE!!! man it's so YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY!!! i can just imagine eating it right now...wait on a diet..if i eat that...then i can't eat too big a lunch..SHIT!!!
ANYWHO!!! i'll continue this nonsense at another time...i have to finish my online homework...
laterz all =P
-j
Currently listening:
Some Cities
By Doves
Release date: By 01 March, 2005
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October 22, 2005 • Saturday
east-west connection??!! and other idiot jabberings
Current mood: numb
so i'm meeting this japanese girl again at 2:15 at a starbuck's in waikiki (how fucking predictable) and i am going to ATTEMPT to help her with this midterm for our ethnobotany class...
feels like the old days are coming back...but myself...well i ain't that person anymore...
i have a ton of stuff...fuck it...i already said that shit in my last blog...
you know...when you think that when you get depressed...that you feel every single level and possible expression of that feeling that you can mentally and emotionally process has been felt...that it could never get worse than this...but then it does? life and your mind has a way of turning things in a way that you never expect...no matter what the situation...
i can officially admit that i have entered a level of depression that i have never felt before...where it bothers me to the point of having no intiative whatsoever to express anything...it's beyond the whole silence and not speaking out bit...it's more than that...
wallowing of course makes it all the better...or worse...how ever you want to see it...which in my case can be both...because yes i am complex that stupidly...
it's not about school...being away from home anymore...it's something else...i just haven't figured it out yet...school is not a fulfilling solace probably because i can't dedicate my full energies to it...
life is so confusing that way...what the fuck...but then if everything was simple would it be as interesting as it is?
probably not.
attempting to answer all the questions we can humanly ask seems stupidier and stupidier every day...i keep wondering why i want to base two years of semi-intense study on it...what the hell am i going to do with it? definitely won't help me i think...just make me more over-sensitive to social undertones...which will probably fuck me up more...and for life too.
sometimes i wish i could be free of thought...and just be...
i miss those people in my life who made me remember those things...
-to andy, guada, amber, sharon, myra, and kwan...for making me remember that LIVING life is not only necessary but essential
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October 21, 2005 • Friday
slacking off...
Current mood: contemplative
well i'm waiting for this japanese girl who from my ethnobotany class...she needs a bit of help for the midterm...she wants to borrow what i have written down...but the thing is that i realized that i have only been watching the last HALF of the lectures online...some of the important ones like the one on limu and hawaiian medicinal plants...wel i didn't get all of it...so i'm a bit screwed myself...i guess pretty much i can only help her in deciding on what to study and what not to study or explain about some things that might be unclear to her...
my midterm is on wednesday next week...i also have my 2nd sociology paper due on thursday...which i have to do major work on...because my sources that i have won't help me that much...so i have to find and read other resources...analyze my oberservations...then write my paper..also i have math hw...
GOD!!! math hw!!! that is always the one i forget or just ignore till it's like...SHIT!!!! i have fucking math hw!!! it's due in 5 hours! i have to do it!!!!
then not to mention that i just found out Albert Wendt is here in hawaii for the rest of the semester (albert wendt is one of the most influential writers in the pacific) AND...AND!!!! as you all know how BIG A FILM FAN I AM! they are having the 25th Louis Vuitton Hawaii International Film Festival going on for the next TEN DAYS!!!!!! (yes i needed that many exclamation marks at the end of that statement!) AND I AM SO EXCITED!!!! the first time that i am in a place that has a film festival...and an international one at that! there are a lot of films that will be showing that have orginated from the pacific and this might be the only time i can watch them on the big screen! so it's about $8 a pop and there are various movies to see!!! so anyone interested please check out the website at:
www.hiff.org
PLEASE CHECK IT OUT!!!
but that's all from me for now...i better go wait in the front sitting area of the library..hope everyone is doing well and being safe...
-j
WOW! MY MySpace clock and cell phone are exactly the same time! THAT'S KEWL!
Current mood: stressed
OKAY! Besides that amazing "believe-or-not" phenomenon life is a bit weird at the moment...but when hasn't it been lately??
so i have a ethnobotany midterm on wednesday...and a 10 pager for sociology 300...not including the fact that i have to re-write my whole literature review including using new resources...YAY! for me! life could be better or worse right now...i just need a lot of coffee...MORE COFFEE...no sleep...and even MORE COFFEE...looks like i'll be up for 2 days straight for this one...
sometimes i hate being here because i don't have anyone to suffer jointly with...where we can bitch and moan about the same classes and study with each other...it would be good to have that sort of relationship in my math class for sure!
i have a midterm for oceanography next monday and i think i have to be able to speak with authority on a certain subject in ethnobotany lab tomorrow...i'm HOPEFULLY bringing delul diokang...I HOPE!!! man it's so YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY!!! i can just imagine eating it right now...wait on a diet..if i eat that...then i can't eat too big a lunch..SHIT!!!
ANYWHO!!! i'll continue this nonsense at another time...i have to finish my online homework...
laterz all =P
-j
Currently listening:
Some Cities
By Doves
Release date: By 01 March, 2005
2:02 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
October 22, 2005 • Saturday
east-west connection??!! and other idiot jabberings
Current mood: numb
so i'm meeting this japanese girl again at 2:15 at a starbuck's in waikiki (how fucking predictable) and i am going to ATTEMPT to help her with this midterm for our ethnobotany class...
feels like the old days are coming back...but myself...well i ain't that person anymore...
i have a ton of stuff...fuck it...i already said that shit in my last blog...
you know...when you think that when you get depressed...that you feel every single level and possible expression of that feeling that you can mentally and emotionally process has been felt...that it could never get worse than this...but then it does? life and your mind has a way of turning things in a way that you never expect...no matter what the situation...
i can officially admit that i have entered a level of depression that i have never felt before...where it bothers me to the point of having no intiative whatsoever to express anything...it's beyond the whole silence and not speaking out bit...it's more than that...
wallowing of course makes it all the better...or worse...how ever you want to see it...which in my case can be both...because yes i am complex that stupidly...
it's not about school...being away from home anymore...it's something else...i just haven't figured it out yet...school is not a fulfilling solace probably because i can't dedicate my full energies to it...
life is so confusing that way...what the fuck...but then if everything was simple would it be as interesting as it is?
probably not.
attempting to answer all the questions we can humanly ask seems stupidier and stupidier every day...i keep wondering why i want to base two years of semi-intense study on it...what the hell am i going to do with it? definitely won't help me i think...just make me more over-sensitive to social undertones...which will probably fuck me up more...and for life too.
sometimes i wish i could be free of thought...and just be...
i miss those people in my life who made me remember those things...
-to andy, guada, amber, sharon, myra, and kwan...for making me remember that LIVING life is not only necessary but essential
1:16 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
October 21, 2005 • Friday
slacking off...
Current mood: contemplative
well i'm waiting for this japanese girl who from my ethnobotany class...she needs a bit of help for the midterm...she wants to borrow what i have written down...but the thing is that i realized that i have only been watching the last HALF of the lectures online...some of the important ones like the one on limu and hawaiian medicinal plants...wel i didn't get all of it...so i'm a bit screwed myself...i guess pretty much i can only help her in deciding on what to study and what not to study or explain about some things that might be unclear to her...
my midterm is on wednesday next week...i also have my 2nd sociology paper due on thursday...which i have to do major work on...because my sources that i have won't help me that much...so i have to find and read other resources...analyze my oberservations...then write my paper..also i have math hw...
GOD!!! math hw!!! that is always the one i forget or just ignore till it's like...SHIT!!!! i have fucking math hw!!! it's due in 5 hours! i have to do it!!!!
then not to mention that i just found out Albert Wendt is here in hawaii for the rest of the semester (albert wendt is one of the most influential writers in the pacific) AND...AND!!!! as you all know how BIG A FILM FAN I AM! they are having the 25th Louis Vuitton Hawaii International Film Festival going on for the next TEN DAYS!!!!!! (yes i needed that many exclamation marks at the end of that statement!) AND I AM SO EXCITED!!!! the first time that i am in a place that has a film festival...and an international one at that! there are a lot of films that will be showing that have orginated from the pacific and this might be the only time i can watch them on the big screen! so it's about $8 a pop and there are various movies to see!!! so anyone interested please check out the website at:
www.hiff.org
PLEASE CHECK IT OUT!!!
but that's all from me for now...i better go wait in the front sitting area of the library..hope everyone is doing well and being safe...
-j