Thank you [6/?]
Title: Thank you
Author: onewaytrackk
Genre: Drama.
Disclaimer: In no way do I own bigbang, something I don't feel happy about. ):
Pairing: GTOP, slight hints of daeri, somehow.
Rating: PG13.
Summary: Seunghyun is sick.
(okay idk how to write a summary, so just read on if you want to okay?)
A/N: First fic.
I'm sorry if you were expecting a long talk or something, buttttt I'm going with this.
"I'm coming in."
and Seunghyun just walked in.
He was pretty sure Jiyong won't even respond to him if he knocked, so he shall just walk in.
"Brought you dinner. You didn't eat."
No response.
Seunghyun placed the tray of food on the bedside table,
And sat next to Jiyong.
"Ji, I'm talking to you?"
He was still ignored.
It was hard for Seunghyun to see Jiyong like this, especially since it was because of him.
He hugged Jiyong.
He could not stand being this close of a distance and not doing anything.
It will be a move he would come to regret later, but who cares, right now all he needs is Jiyong.
He don't really need Jiyong to do anything like hugging back, as long as he is there, Seunghyun will be fine. For now.
Jiyong resisted but Seunghyun was afterall the stronger one here,
His shirt was getting wet,
Jiyong's tears were overflowing.
"I hate you." He sobbed.
"I know."
"Why did you leave. It's because of me right. I'm so sorry. Don't leave me again, please hyun. I will do anything you want me to. I don't want to break up with you, please. I take back whatever I said."
Seunghyun's heart practically broke upon hearing what Jiyong just said.
If only he knew.
"I have my reasons Ji, its really not your fault, trust me."
"Don't lie to me Hyun, I know its cause of me, sorry hyun sorry."
Seunghyun sighed,
Jiyong was still stubborn.
"Ji. Listen to me, its not your fault that I left okay? You better remember that. Okay? You said you will do anything, I need you to trust me." He used a really strict voice.
Jiyong nodded into Seunghyun's shirt.
He didn't want to make Seunghyun frustrated at him, what if he leaves again.
He's going to keep by his promise and believe whatever Seunghyun says.
"Mmm, good boy." Seunghyun ruffled his hair.
"You haven't eaten your dinner."
"Don't want to. Crying over you makes me tired, I wanna sleep. But stay here with me please hyun? Please don't leave."
Seunghyun somewhat smiled at the innocence Jiyong was portraying right now.
"Okay. Sleep. I will be here."
Seunghyun was tired too, but he didn't want to sleep until Jiyong slept.
Jiyong clinged on to Seunghyun really tightly, like he was really afraid of him leaving.
Seunghyun woke up 4 times in the night.
Jiyong had nightmares. about him.
Jiyong was shouting his name in his sleep and clutched onto Seunghyun even more tightly than he did before he slept.
He was pretty sure Jiyong's knuckles were turning white even though he can't see it in the dark.
He had to calm Jiyong down and ensure him that he was there, he was not leaving him again.
It was all Seunghyun's fault, that Jiyong had became so dependent on him.
Seunghyun had frightened him when he left.
What will happen when he goes for the op?
He definitely won't tell Jiyong.
What will happen when Jiyong realizes he was gone if the op fails?
Was Jiyong like this all the other nights after he left?
He had talked to Bae, Dae and Ri just now during dinner. They talked about Jiyong's self destruct mode and about his illness. Jiyong just wasn't himself. His operation was scheduled to take place 3 weeks later. Thats 21 days. 21 days more living with Jiyong and them.
Jiyong's POV.
"Hyun! Your phone is ringing." Jiyong was taking pictures of himself with Seunghyun's phone and trying to find a perfect one to set as Seunghyun's wallpaper.
"Pick it up for me please." Seunghyun shouted from the bathroom.
It was the next day, they just came back from the beach.
"Hello?"
"Hello, this is the hospital calling. Is this Choi Seunghyun?"
Hospital? Huh?
"Yeah..." Jiyong answered subconsciously.
Why would the hospital call Seunghyun out of a sudden. They had personal doctors, no reason for the hospital to call. He shall find out on his own.
"About your operation..."
Operation?
He ended the call before the person on the phone completed his sentence.
"Who was that Ji?"
Seunghyun tussled his wet hair with his towel.
"Hyun, is there something you're keeping from me? You said I need to trust you, I do, so you should tell me everything. You need to." Jiyong's voice was shaking.
Seunghyun just asked him to trust him last night, could he really?
"Eh?"
The phone rang again.
Jiyong's eyes lighted up with fear.
Seunghyun picked it up with questioning eyes directed at Jiyong.
Jiyong was really scared.
Is that why Seunghyun had been bringing him to places he said he wanted to go and doing things he wanted to do, together since he came back 6 days ago?
Amusement park, watching a movie marathon, playing at the arcade, having a dance-off, rap battle while wearing dresses.
He thought it was weird for Seunghyun to agree, like hello, Seunghyun is so manly, he don't seem like he will ever agree to wear a dress and have a rap battle at the same time, wait, he won't be even be caught dead in a dress.
The first time Jiyong brought his fantasy up, Seunghyun strongly protested and objected.
He thought Seunghyun just wanted to make him happy and make up for him leaving, he didn't know things were this serious.
He was having a lot of fun with Seunghyun, he was very happy, now that he knows that things are not as simple as it seemed.
Seunghyun had cancer.
Why god, why.
Seunghyun, out of all people.
His Seunghyun.
Why did Seunghyun keep everything to himself?
Did he not trust him enough, not trust him to keep a rational head about it?
Seunghyun's POV.
"Hello Mr Choi? There seemed to be a telecommunication problem just now. As I was about to say, would you like to postpone your operation to this week? The slot is on Friday."
Just now? Wait. Ji. He found out, didn't he.
"Can I get back to you in an hour or so? I will have to discuss with my family."
Yeah family, the band was his family.
Jiyong was standing at one corner of the room now, biting his nails.
He only does that when he was really really nervous, uncertain.
He do know.
"Um Ji? Let's go talk with the rest okay?"
Jiyong was not moving.
Seunghyun went over and dragged him by his hand, if he didn't, Jiyong probably won't even go.
He called the rest down, and they sat at the couch.
Seunghyun pulled Jiyong next to him.
Jiyong just had a blank look across his face.
"Jiyong knows."
"Oh."
"You mean they knew?" Jiyong finally talked.
Seunghyun nodded.
Jiyong stood up and wanted to walk away but Seunghyun pulled him back down onto the couch.
"We need to talk about this, as a band."
Jiyong grumbled. He did not like this at all, he didn't want to be here. The hell, operation?
"Its brain tumor. Found out like. I don't know. Last year? I left cause of that, supposed to go there for treatment. Not much of a difference, and on the day you found out I do contact Dae, the doctors said that the tumor had moved once again, so the operation would have a higher chance of success. So I changed my mind and came back. Don't wanna do the op at a foreign place."
He didn't mention the operation date.
Author: onewaytrackk
Genre: Drama.
Disclaimer: In no way do I own bigbang, something I don't feel happy about. ):
Pairing: GTOP, slight hints of daeri, somehow.
Rating: PG13.
Summary: Seunghyun is sick.
(okay idk how to write a summary, so just read on if you want to okay?)
A/N: First fic.
I'm sorry if you were expecting a long talk or something, buttttt I'm going with this.
"I'm coming in."
and Seunghyun just walked in.
He was pretty sure Jiyong won't even respond to him if he knocked, so he shall just walk in.
"Brought you dinner. You didn't eat."
No response.
Seunghyun placed the tray of food on the bedside table,
And sat next to Jiyong.
"Ji, I'm talking to you?"
He was still ignored.
It was hard for Seunghyun to see Jiyong like this, especially since it was because of him.
He hugged Jiyong.
He could not stand being this close of a distance and not doing anything.
It will be a move he would come to regret later, but who cares, right now all he needs is Jiyong.
He don't really need Jiyong to do anything like hugging back, as long as he is there, Seunghyun will be fine. For now.
Jiyong resisted but Seunghyun was afterall the stronger one here,
His shirt was getting wet,
Jiyong's tears were overflowing.
"I hate you." He sobbed.
"I know."
"Why did you leave. It's because of me right. I'm so sorry. Don't leave me again, please hyun. I will do anything you want me to. I don't want to break up with you, please. I take back whatever I said."
Seunghyun's heart practically broke upon hearing what Jiyong just said.
If only he knew.
"I have my reasons Ji, its really not your fault, trust me."
"Don't lie to me Hyun, I know its cause of me, sorry hyun sorry."
Seunghyun sighed,
Jiyong was still stubborn.
"Ji. Listen to me, its not your fault that I left okay? You better remember that. Okay? You said you will do anything, I need you to trust me." He used a really strict voice.
Jiyong nodded into Seunghyun's shirt.
He didn't want to make Seunghyun frustrated at him, what if he leaves again.
He's going to keep by his promise and believe whatever Seunghyun says.
"Mmm, good boy." Seunghyun ruffled his hair.
"You haven't eaten your dinner."
"Don't want to. Crying over you makes me tired, I wanna sleep. But stay here with me please hyun? Please don't leave."
Seunghyun somewhat smiled at the innocence Jiyong was portraying right now.
"Okay. Sleep. I will be here."
Seunghyun was tired too, but he didn't want to sleep until Jiyong slept.
Jiyong clinged on to Seunghyun really tightly, like he was really afraid of him leaving.
Seunghyun woke up 4 times in the night.
Jiyong had nightmares. about him.
Jiyong was shouting his name in his sleep and clutched onto Seunghyun even more tightly than he did before he slept.
He was pretty sure Jiyong's knuckles were turning white even though he can't see it in the dark.
He had to calm Jiyong down and ensure him that he was there, he was not leaving him again.
It was all Seunghyun's fault, that Jiyong had became so dependent on him.
Seunghyun had frightened him when he left.
What will happen when he goes for the op?
He definitely won't tell Jiyong.
What will happen when Jiyong realizes he was gone if the op fails?
Was Jiyong like this all the other nights after he left?
He had talked to Bae, Dae and Ri just now during dinner. They talked about Jiyong's self destruct mode and about his illness. Jiyong just wasn't himself. His operation was scheduled to take place 3 weeks later. Thats 21 days. 21 days more living with Jiyong and them.
Jiyong's POV.
"Hyun! Your phone is ringing." Jiyong was taking pictures of himself with Seunghyun's phone and trying to find a perfect one to set as Seunghyun's wallpaper.
"Pick it up for me please." Seunghyun shouted from the bathroom.
It was the next day, they just came back from the beach.
"Hello?"
"Hello, this is the hospital calling. Is this Choi Seunghyun?"
Hospital? Huh?
"Yeah..." Jiyong answered subconsciously.
Why would the hospital call Seunghyun out of a sudden. They had personal doctors, no reason for the hospital to call. He shall find out on his own.
"About your operation..."
Operation?
He ended the call before the person on the phone completed his sentence.
"Who was that Ji?"
Seunghyun tussled his wet hair with his towel.
"Hyun, is there something you're keeping from me? You said I need to trust you, I do, so you should tell me everything. You need to." Jiyong's voice was shaking.
Seunghyun just asked him to trust him last night, could he really?
"Eh?"
The phone rang again.
Jiyong's eyes lighted up with fear.
Seunghyun picked it up with questioning eyes directed at Jiyong.
Jiyong was really scared.
Is that why Seunghyun had been bringing him to places he said he wanted to go and doing things he wanted to do, together since he came back 6 days ago?
Amusement park, watching a movie marathon, playing at the arcade, having a dance-off, rap battle while wearing dresses.
He thought it was weird for Seunghyun to agree, like hello, Seunghyun is so manly, he don't seem like he will ever agree to wear a dress and have a rap battle at the same time, wait, he won't be even be caught dead in a dress.
The first time Jiyong brought his fantasy up, Seunghyun strongly protested and objected.
He thought Seunghyun just wanted to make him happy and make up for him leaving, he didn't know things were this serious.
He was having a lot of fun with Seunghyun, he was very happy, now that he knows that things are not as simple as it seemed.
Seunghyun had cancer.
Why god, why.
Seunghyun, out of all people.
His Seunghyun.
Why did Seunghyun keep everything to himself?
Did he not trust him enough, not trust him to keep a rational head about it?
Seunghyun's POV.
"Hello Mr Choi? There seemed to be a telecommunication problem just now. As I was about to say, would you like to postpone your operation to this week? The slot is on Friday."
Just now? Wait. Ji. He found out, didn't he.
"Can I get back to you in an hour or so? I will have to discuss with my family."
Yeah family, the band was his family.
Jiyong was standing at one corner of the room now, biting his nails.
He only does that when he was really really nervous, uncertain.
He do know.
"Um Ji? Let's go talk with the rest okay?"
Jiyong was not moving.
Seunghyun went over and dragged him by his hand, if he didn't, Jiyong probably won't even go.
He called the rest down, and they sat at the couch.
Seunghyun pulled Jiyong next to him.
Jiyong just had a blank look across his face.
"Jiyong knows."
"Oh."
"You mean they knew?" Jiyong finally talked.
Seunghyun nodded.
Jiyong stood up and wanted to walk away but Seunghyun pulled him back down onto the couch.
"We need to talk about this, as a band."
Jiyong grumbled. He did not like this at all, he didn't want to be here. The hell, operation?
"Its brain tumor. Found out like. I don't know. Last year? I left cause of that, supposed to go there for treatment. Not much of a difference, and on the day you found out I do contact Dae, the doctors said that the tumor had moved once again, so the operation would have a higher chance of success. So I changed my mind and came back. Don't wanna do the op at a foreign place."
He didn't mention the operation date.